[Thurman]
You're right, it is easier to say over the internet, even if the internet is cack. Guilt compels me to explain it, and you should know at least that much about me, by now. I also realized it's better if it's a stranger, but can't it be a paid stranger?
Fuck it. I'm being overprotective. If you really need to find that out and get past whatever it was in your head that's gone wrong, to make sure you're not broken inside or the likes, then do it. I'll stop cockblocking you, for fuck's sake. Simply be careful, would you? Or I'll have to start killing people and it'll turn into a whole temporary insanity due to rage situation, should anything happen to you.