I don't see how you think I can possibly be trying to be deceptive. I've told you rather honestly my feelings about these dreams. I truly don't think there's a way to escape this. And since you seem to doubt my sincerity, allow me to tell you my own personal experience.
I had no intentions to become what I am. I wanted the power, yes, the magic and the sorcery, but it's no secret that I've always sought ambition. So I stayed the relatively nice, good person I was. But the people who share those dreams, the ones who also saw all that, didn't care. To them, I was that Loki. I extended the olive branch and was accused of being up to something, and so I thought to myself, why should I bother? The only person who sees beyond this is Thor, because he is an optimistic fool, and even I could see myself becoming that. I barely had to do anything to accept it myself, they'd accepted it for me. And I'm very, very glad for it.
But for all that, I've yet to meet her in my dream world. I know of her, of course, but we've yet to cross paths. I think she's one not to be taken lightly.