Pen (TW: child abuse, alcoholism mentioned in comments)
He did that shit to me because I couldn't listen, because I couldn't get my shit together to have everything to his mysteriously particular standards.
Look at my life, Pen. I'm tiptoeing around all over again. I'm just...fucked up. Everywhere. And I know Cas would never, ever do anything like Dad did, but that doesn't stop me from being afraid and that fear doesn't stop me from yelling or being a general piece of shit.