I am under standing. I don't know if I could hurt anyone, since I think I am one of the lovers instead of KAPOW fighting?
If it is for a reason then that is very good! No one wants to be a burden on others without trying to go KAPOW fisting of fury on bad guys!
I know some times sadness happens when we aren't wanting it to be there. Maybe those things will help you! Try drawing a caterpillar or ostrich doing yoga and it is looking very funny. ^__^