I'm having a drink. I'm not destroying myself. This is shit I cannot handle sober. If I could, I would be, but I can't. I'm sorry I'm a shit human being and can't measure up to standards for basic decency.
Because I just watched my gun get used by the best thing to ever happen to that kid to put a bullet between his eyes and I'm the one who handed him the weapon and I can't, okay? I cannot fucking handle this.