Obi-Wan is aging surprisingly well (obi1) wrote in valarnet, @ 2012-05-14 09:51:00 |
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Mother's Day
What happened yesterday? Mrs. Higgins doesn't have any children that live nearby, so I got to be her son for the day. We went out to breakfast and then we saw Dark Shadows, which was an unexpected choice, but she was a fan of the television show. :)
After that, we went back to the house and she showed me photos of her grandchildren.
When someone says they feel peaceful, I think what they usually mean is relaxed, but that isn't really the same thing. Relaxation is just a brief respite from work. Peacefulness lifts the world from your shoulders. That's how I feel right now. Peaceful.
I always felt it was partially my fault that your life followed the path that it did, which isn't so say I wish I'd never been born. For that, I'm forever in your debt. But I blamed you too much for not being able to take care of me like I wanted you to. In the end, it seemed much too easy for you to give me away. I wanted to be impossible to part with. But I understand why you did it. I know you wanted to give your little boxer a fighting chance. I'll make you proud yet, you'll see.
I know we have no reason to celebrate Mother's Day, but I think you were the most maternal woman I've ever known. I married you because I wanted to learn how to love like you did. I'm sorry. You know how much, now. But I think you're finally starting to get through to me.