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Lady Amalthea has eyes as bright as amethyst (walkinmansroad) wrote in valarlogs,
@ 2013-04-12 22:53:00

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lady amalthea, taiki kou (sailor star maker)

Who: Lady Amalthea and Taiki Kou
What: Him trying to convince her that her mother was wrong.
When: Sometime after these texts
Where: Her place
Rating: PG-13 at most. TW for discussion eating disorder and mentally abusive parent and previous partner.
Status: In progress.

Amalthea had not wanted him to be so worried. To be honest she expected him to start get controlling. But that's just a fear she might always have. She went to the kitchen and forced herself to eat a days worth of meal as quickly as she could. Two protein shakes, a muffin, a bowl of fruit quickly,and a rather large glass of soy milk. And well... She feels ill but at least wont feel guilt for not eating like he'd asked her to.

It was that same fear from Kevin, but... She just didn't want to upset him. She sat on the couch and held her stomach and her head, trying to keep from vomiting. She heard the door knocked on and called out. "Its unlocked..."

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overinfinity
2013-04-13 03:01 am UTC (link)

It was part of Taiki's nature to be worried about the people he cared for. Thea was his girlfriend, so it was natural that he be twice as worried about her...

He let himself in, making sure to close the door properly behind him, and moved over to her. "I know you said you ate, but... I get the feeling you rushed it."

It made logical sense to assume that, at least. It was either that or she'd contradicted herself over the course of their texts.

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	walkinmansroad 2013-04-13 03:04 am UTC (link)
	She didn't want to admit it, but she nodded and cupped a hand over her mouth. It would be best for her to keep it down, and maybe he could actually keep her calm enough for it to stay down. Thea held her stomach and went and lurched as if she were going to lose what she ate. (Reply to this)

overinfinity
2013-04-13 03:11 am UTC (link)

At least she'd admitted it. That was a step in the right sort of direction... not that Taiki was going to let her slip away quite that easily. He gently pulled her into his arms, lightly rubbing at her back.

"I need you to breathe... focus on me. My heartbeat, the rhythm of my breathing... anything other than how you feel right this moment." He could do this, dammit. He knew he could. "I'm here to help you... in any way I can."

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walkinmansroad
2013-04-13 03:14 am UTC (link)

She struggled away for a few moment, feeling he would hurt her. But... The moment she noticed he wasn't using too much force and that it was just her being weak as all hell... She stopped and leaned in closer and rested her ear by where his heart was.

Thea kept her hand over her mouth, still occasionally lurching forward with how ill she felt. After a while she began to slow her breathing to match his.

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	overinfinity 2013-04-13 03:17 am UTC (link)
	Taiki would've never even thought of hurting her. She'd been through enough already, and he had no intentions of adding to it. "It's going to be okay... I promise." He was going to find a way to help her through all of this. It wasn't right for her to be stuck with such... terribleness. (Reply to this)

	walkinmansroad 2013-04-13 03:21 am UTC (link)
	After around 15 minutes she dropped her hands and breathed calmly. She was still uncomfortably full, but it wasn't like she could help that. "I'm sorry... I'm no good at this on my own. I ate... a muffin and two protein shakes, glass of soy milk and some fruit... All in like.. ten minutes..." (Reply to this)

	overinfinity 2013-04-13 03:27 am UTC (link)
	That was actually slightly more than Taiki had expected, but he didn't let that break his concentration. Comments on things like that wouldn't help in the slightest. "I can try and set up a system. I can text you to remind you to eat at certain times of day..." And he was fairly sure she'd protest, but he was nothing but stubborn. "It'd be easier on your body." (Reply to this)

	walkinmansroad 2013-04-13 03:35 am UTC (link)
	"But I don't like eating... I don't really like food. Ran a hand over her shoulder, not pulling away from him because the touch was actually really, really nice. "I... You can text me if you want." (Reply to this)

	overinfinity 2013-04-13 03:37 am UTC (link)
	Wasn't it entirely possible she only didn't like food because of her condition? Taiki had to wonder. "I should really do it more often anyway. I need to be a bit more of an attentive boyfriend." (Reply to this)

	walkinmansroad 2013-04-13 03:43 am UTC (link)
	Looked up at him at bit her lip. "It doesn't feel like I have a boyfriend sometimes." Maybe it was just because she had no real basis for a healthy relationship to see if it actually was how one was meant to go. (Reply to this)

overinfinity
2013-04-13 03:48 am UTC (link)

Considering she'd said she'd only been with that... idiotic bastard of a man beforehand, Taiki wasn't quite sure how to take that. True, it wasn't like he'd exactly had much experience either, but he knew a decent amount...

"From now on, I'll be better for you." And there was only one way he could think to set this off on entirely the right foot. He tipped her head up, kissing her gently.

If she slapped him, he'd take that as a completely legitimate answer too! He could understand why if she did.

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walkinmansroad
2013-04-13 03:55 am UTC (link)

At the initial contact she froze, back tensing up quite a bit. This was not at all what she expect, not was she was used to. She breathed in before nervously wrapping her arms around his neck and tucked in close, eyes gently closing as she returned the kiss.

Despite everything that bastard did, despite everything he said. She was a good kisser, damned good one if anyone asked. The right amount of movement. That or they could just match in types. Be the perfect types of kissers for each other. Either way, this was a damn good kiss.

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	overinfinity 2013-04-13 04:02 am UTC (link)
	'Damn good' may well have been an understatement, at least in Taiki's humble opinion. Not wanting to drag it out too long, he pulled away, some kind of instinct making him lightly run his fingers through her hair. "Sorry if that was a bit sudden, it's... all I could really think to do..." And now he wanted to do it again. This could be problematic in the long run. (Reply to this)

	walkinmansroad 2013-04-13 04:11 am UTC (link)
	And well, she's crying. Rather pathetically to be entirely honest. She can't help it. Amalthea wasn't going to pull away, but she wasn't going to say much. Too many tears. (Reply to this)

	overinfinity 2013-04-13 04:14 am UTC (link)
	And honestly, Taiki wouldn't expect her to force speaking right now. He simply held her a little closer, tracing idle patterns across her back. "Take your time... cry as much as you need to." He wouldn't even ask why. Whether she told him or not was clearly up to her to decide. (Reply to this)

walkinmansroad
2013-04-13 04:26 am UTC (link)

"W-w-why are you so nice to me. I don't deserve this..." Shook her head quickly and tried to push off and run to her room, sobbing only she got about halfway down the hallway and had to run to the hall toilet and throw up everything and even more, this time blood actually in it. Shed never purged, but it can be assumed its from stomach acid eating away at her stomach lining. Wonderful.

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overinfinity
2013-04-13 04:30 am UTC (link)

Well, that was certainly... pleasant. Taiki had, naturally, followed her out of concern, and... well, in a way, he was glad he had. It was a good thing that blood didn't really faze him.

"You deserve the best of everything... if you'll let me give it to you." He'd probably contact Mamoru and ask him for some advice on this particular situation, just in case. "Let me help you. Please."

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	walkinmansroad 2013-04-13 04:32 am UTC (link)
	Thea tipped her head down and to the side, the exerting of even just vomiting enough to make her pass out. That and far too many classes taken at once just to please her 'dear mother'. It's not like she couldn't afford to drop out of several of them, if not all of them until the next year. She needed to get her health in order first... (Reply to this)

	overinfinity 2013-04-13 04:37 am UTC (link)
	And goddammit, Taiki was going to make damned sure that she got her health back in order. All of those classes probably weren't helping her find the time to eat... it was just a matter of somehow convincing her to drop some of them. He moved to pick her up, cleaning her up just a little before putting her to bed. Best she wake up somewhere comfortable. (Reply to this)

	walkinmansroad 2013-04-13 04:41 am UTC (link)
	She didn't wake up until late in the evening the following day. And when she does she feels ill still. Being in bed is nice though. She looked around to a little bell beside her bed that wasn't there. She picked it up and let it jingle.... (Reply to this)

	overinfinity 2013-04-13 04:44 am UTC (link)
	The bell had been one of Taiki's more clever ideas. Thea didn't seem the type to raise her voice for much, so... it was a quick and easy way of getting his attention without the need for much talking. He was in the room quick enough, stopping at the door. He didn't want to intrude too much, just in case. "Feel any better? You slept a long time..." (Reply to this)

	walkinmansroad 2013-04-13 04:56 am UTC (link)
	"I... What time is it? Oh no. I'll be late for my applied...." Ground when she sat up to quickly. If she let herself go too far there was a chance shed be hospitalised for this. Her hip bones had started to show and yet... She didn't see it. (Reply to this)

	overinfinity 2013-04-13 02:30 pm UTC (link)
	"I've already told them you're not at your best..." Like hell was Taiki going to let her out. Not whilst she was clearly still suffering. "You really have too many classes, you know..." (Reply to this)

	walkinmansroad 2013-04-13 07:08 pm UTC (link)
	"But...." Thea started but began to cough, her chest hurting and burning. She looked up to him. "Taiki... What is going on with me?" (Reply to this)

	overinfinity 2013-04-13 07:23 pm UTC (link)
	It was a good thing that she'd at least asked. Taiki would give her that much. "You're overworking your body. You're doing too much on too little food, and... it's struggling to cope." (Reply to this)

	walkinmansroad 2013-04-13 07:40 pm UTC (link)
	"... So my I'm killing my body..."Looked up at him. She needs to know that answer. (Reply to this)

	overinfinity 2013-04-13 08:13 pm UTC (link)
	"...Essentially, yes." Lying to her about this wouldn't get them anywhere. Sometimes, the simple (and fairly harsh) truth was the most important thing to hear. (Reply to this)

	walkinmansroad 2013-04-13 08:17 pm UTC (link)
	Amalthea sat up and held her knees up to her chest and closed her eyes. "I don't want to die..." Her shoulders shaking. "But what do I really have to live for..." Still issues with relationships and trying to live for someone let alone herself. (Reply to this)

	overinfinity 2013-04-13 08:22 pm UTC (link)
	What didn't she have to live for? Life might have its troubles, but it was infinitely better than the alternative... "For yourself, first and foremost... for the people who care for you." (Reply to this)

	walkinmansroad 2013-04-13 08:25 pm UTC (link)
	"Why myself? I'm nothing special. And very few people truly care..." She said looking up to him. "I just make people upset or mad at me. I do things wrong. I can't do anything right and I just... Maybe it would make my mother finally notice me. Even if I wouldn't be here to see it Its jus-' (Reply to this)

	overinfinity 2013-04-13 08:28 pm UTC (link)
	Taiki was going to stop that thought right there. He pulled her into another kiss, trying to use that to convince her that yes, she was damned special... to him, at very least. (Reply to this)

walkinmansroad
2013-04-13 08:33 pm UTC (link)

The kiss caught her off guard, and the first few moments she breathed in slight distress because he was putting to much pressure. When he loosened she moved in to return the kiss before pulling away and pushing her head onto his neck. "I want to get better... I want to... Not feel so cold, so much in... pain."

Amalthea took his hand and tried to get him to hold her. "Help me get better..."

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	overinfinity 2013-04-13 08:37 pm UTC (link)
	It wasn't like he'd meant to be too rough with it, but... honestly, it wasn't like you could exactly blame him. It was dangerous for her to think like that, in more ways than one. It'd had the right sort of effect, though... he held her close, making sure to be gentle. "I'll do anything I can to help you..." (Reply to this)

	walkinmansroad 2013-04-13 08:40 pm UTC (link)
	"How do... I start to get better?" Looked up to him, biting her lip slightly. Sure her admitting there was something seriously wrong, and agreeing to get better was the first and mot important step... She simply doesn't know how else to go about it. (Reply to this)

	overinfinity 2013-04-13 08:42 pm UTC (link)
	Well, this was basically what Mamoru had gone over the last time, wasn't it? Maybe if Taiki said it, she'd actually listen this time... "You're going to need to start eating properly... and that's something I can help you with." (Reply to this)

	walkinmansroad 2013-04-13 08:45 pm UTC (link)
	"But... I forget and I have all my classes... Sure I can pay for them easy because of... what my daddy does but. I don't want to let him down..." In actuality her father would want her to drop out until she was better. She'd still keep her credits after all. (Reply to this)

	overinfinity 2013-04-13 08:50 pm UTC (link)
	Taiki sighed. Whilst he could understand being so into your education, it clearly wasn't doing her any good at all. "Thea... I would honestly advise you to drop out completely. At least until you're better.." (Reply to this)

	walkinmansroad 2013-04-13 09:03 pm UTC (link)
	"What?! No! Are you crazy?!" Pushed him away. "It's all I have and you want me to stop it?!" She shouted which was a terrible mistake because it just got her heart rate up and that meant nearly fainting again. (Reply to this)

	overinfinity 2013-04-13 09:04 pm UTC (link)
	Well then. Taiki could kind of understand that reaction, but... "If you want to get better, you don't really have much choice. You don't have enough time to eat properly with all of those classes..." (Reply to this)

	walkinmansroad 2013-04-13 09:13 pm UTC (link)
	"I can still do it! I can! What would I do without it. I don't have a job... Sure I have enough to pay for everything I need for... a while but... I'm sorry. For snapping.." (Reply to this)

	overinfinity 2013-04-13 09:19 pm UTC (link)
	"I think everyone's allowed to snap sometimes..." Besides, Taiki'd experienced worse! All the fun of working in the music business, with some of the worst divas in existence. "I'd help you find something to do. Something nice." (Reply to this)