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Violet Harmon likes the darkness. (takeeverything) wrote in valarlogs,
@ 2012-11-27 01:21:00

Entry tags:

!complete, tate langdon, violet harmon

Who: Violet and Tate.
What: He's in the hospital and she should be.
When: Tuesday morning, in the wee hours.
Where: The hospital closest to their houses.
Rating: R with these two, definitely a trigger warning for self-harm/suicide.
Status: Complete!

Sorry wasn't enough. And when Tate didn't show up to school for two days, Violet was sure she'd lost him. He'd moved or dropped out or transferred or died and she couldn't help herself and soon the pills found their ways into her fingers, down her throat - careful! Only two or three at a time or she'd throw too many of them up. Vodka would help, girls in the movies always drank vodka with pills when their lives were over.

She threw up some of it, but her skin was still grey when she messaged him, and she knew she looked like death when she arrived at the hospital. She had his room number, and she walked toward it, backpack in tow.

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	takeeverything 2012-11-28 05:49 am UTC (link)
	"Wonder if your name will scar," she murmured, burrowing into his touch. "Is it stupid I started to cut myself and all I could think of was your name?" It was around her ring finger and on her stomach now. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

noble_war
2012-11-28 06:04 am UTC (link)

"You shouldn't have done that," he mumbled under his breath, closing his eyes. "It's not stupid."

After all, somewhere in the mess on his arms? He had her name there more than once. Or, at least, that's where he was doing at first, until he went overboard just as much as she did.

Ahh. Young love. Where everything feels like it's the end of the world - or the entire universe - if it goes wrong.

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	takeeverything 2012-11-28 06:12 am UTC (link)
	"Probably not." Violet kissed him, curling up and actually feeling safe for the first time in days. She closed her eyes, twining their fingers together and smiling. "I love you. This is all I needed." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

noble_war
2012-11-28 06:25 am UTC (link)

"I love you," he said, holding onto her like he was afraid to let go. Which, considering the last few days, he might be. A bit. Deep down, inside. He wasn't sure what else he needed, but Violet did make everything better. Hopefully she wouldn't tell him to go away again. He hadn't liked it when she sent those words to him, and he didn't want to ever hear her say them, out loud.

But that was something he'd tell her, later on, when they both were feeling more normal. Or what was normal for them, at the very least.

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	takeeverything 2012-11-28 08:11 am UTC (link)
	She closed her eyes. "I don't know if you'll ever be able to forgive me. And I don't know if I deserve it. I never thought I was really - I don't think I could ever really leave. For what that's worth." She felt like she could finally sleep, really rest, unafraid of dreams. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

noble_war
2012-11-28 08:18 am UTC (link)

"It's all right. You didn't make it happen." Beth did. He knew it, and the only speck of reservations he had, was that she'd listened to Beth and cast him aside so easily, based on what she was told. But it wasn't like he was going to bring it up, because he knew who to blame and who deserved it, and Violet wasn't the one who did. He was simply at ease, because she was in his arms and he could sleep. And even if the dreams came, and even if they were terrible...he would wake up with her there.

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