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Courfeyrac Doesn't Need Your Stinking Participle (the_centre) wrote in valarlogs,
@ 2013-06-05 22:45:00

Current mood:	bouncy
Entry tags:	!open, !trigger warning, arya stark, beleg cuthalion, courfeyrac, enjolras, euphrasie fauchelevant (cosette), gendry waters, huckleberry pie, jehan prouvaire, justin taylor, musichetta

Who: Courfeyrac, Open
Where: The Cafe at ULCA
When: June 5th-6th (seriously. this thing ends at the stroke of midnight on the 7th)
What: Party
Warnings: This may very well devolve into discussing violence, etc. And I wouldn't be surprised if there are other antics so...Don't read this at work?

The party was in full swing as Courfeyrac wandered back from the cafe's little bar with more espresso, pausing to mix it with two bottles of five hour energy before taking a sip and grimacing. Enjolras's method was disgusting, he decided, but he was exhausted and determined to stay awake for the rest of the group here, and the sake of not dreaming at all.

At least the flashing strobe lights were helping with that, the music blaring and several games in full swing.

"VIVE LaMARQUE!" He screamed into the early gathered crowd, phone in his hand as he started texting more people to get their asses over here.

((So tag in and label who it's for, if it's open, etc? This doesn't HAVE to be an angst hole, in fact, humor would be awesome here. Ah barricade day(s), what you do to me.))

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	pluspetitpoete 2013-06-06 02:58 am UTC (link)
	Jehan and Chetta had been worried about Courfeyrac for a while now, honestly. His behaviour was troublesome, starting with the death of poor Danton and going out from there. And now this party, on this day of all days. He arrives and gives Courfeyrac a small wave, expression decidedly more sombre than usual. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	the_centre 2013-06-06 03:15 am UTC (link)
	"Hey," Courfeyrac blinked at Jehan's expression even as he pulled him tightly against him, letting himself remember that, for here, in this world, Jehan WAS here with them. They weren't about to lose each other here, were they? He couldn't let himself think of that. "Missed you." he explained, giving Jehan a broad smile that was somewhat...fixed. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pluspetitpoete 2013-06-06 03:17 am UTC (link)
	"Missed you, too." Jehan wraps his arms tight around Courfeyrac's waist and sighs, resting his head against his boyfriend's shoulder. He feels good and solid and real, and Jehan had needed that reassurance before the started talking about serious things. "Tell me why you're having this party today, love." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	the_centre 2013-06-06 03:26 am UTC (link)
	"What, oh because...we all really needed it, I think. Blow off some steam. People have been posting about a lot of stressful things going on, finals start in a couple days...Idon'twanttofallasleep." He added, mostly under his breath as he reached a hand up to tangle in Jehan's curls. "That kind of thing." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pluspetitpoete 2013-06-06 03:31 am UTC (link)
	"We both know what today is. Even I've dreamed of LaMarque's funeral, my love. I don't think it's healthy to try and distract yourself like this, and it's especially not healthy to try and keep awake for the whole thing." He sighs and rubs at Andre's back, kissing his ear. "We're worried about you. 'Chetta and I are. And Marius too, I'm certain." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

the_centre
2013-06-06 03:38 am UTC (link)

"Shit." Courfeyrac muttered, half to himself. "It seemed like it was working. But I can't..." he swallowed hard, shaking his head. "It's going to be bad, I'm sure, not the worst, that's over, but...I don't want to see everybody else dying either."

He took a few deep breaths, sagging a little against Jehan with the touch there. "You don't have to worry. Promise. I'll be...well, I won't be okay but I'm trying. I just..." And then he took another, shaky breath.

"They shot my hat off." he said at last, kind of stupidly. "The last dream I mean. There was a cannon and it got so close. I'm not afraid to die there but I don't want to see the others...it's fine for me because I'm just going to find you again but..."

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pluspetitpoete
2013-06-06 03:43 am UTC (link)

"I know, my love. I know." He cups Courfeyrac's face in his hands and kisses him softly, trying to soothe. He runs his fingers through Andre's hair and kisses his forehead, his chin, his cheeks. Just wanting to kiss away all his problems.

"But for a while now you've seemed not yourself. You scared me half to death when you talked about doubling up on your medications, I'm glad your doctor got to you before I did. And then that idea with Marius's gun -- you could have hurt yourself. And now this. It feels like I'm losing you, and I can't stand that."

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the_centre
2013-06-06 03:51 am UTC (link)

"Losing me?" Courfeyrac frowned at that part. "I asked before I did it because I don't want anything to happen. I'm not so bad that I'd just...jump in and do it. I don't want to leave any of you with me in a coma or anything. I had just....wanted to be so unconscious I didn't dream, I guess. If that makes sense? I don't know how to...to make them something that I only think of there. I'm terrified." he added, more quietly.

"I know you're here for me and you HAVE helped a lot but it's like...some kind of compulsion. Everything. All of you gone." His hands had started shaking a little, and it was hard to know if that was him, or the caffeine.

"You can't lose me. I promise you that much. This is, I don't know, it's stupid. I just thought...anything to distract me I guess? It's probably something to think more about later. Just...I love you. And I can't stand the thought of...hearing that again. I can't stand it either. But I don't know what else might do it here."

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pluspetitpoete
2013-06-06 04:05 am UTC (link)

"Nothing, my love. Nothing here will take me from you, I swear it." He takes Courfeyrac's hands and squeezes them tightly, to let his love know he's right there, right in front of him.

"What if I were with you while you slept tonight? Then you could wake up and no matter what I'd be right there. Holding you. Because I don't think you should stay up three days straight, my love. I'd worry for you so, I think it would do you greater harm in the long run."

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the_centre
2013-06-06 04:22 am UTC (link)

And that is the point where Courfeyrac is moving his own hands so that his arms are around Jehan and he's clinging to him like he'll never let go again. It seems so...One moment he was there and then gone in the dreams so he wants to make sure, really sure that he doesn't let him out of his sight just now.

He IS slowly nodding now, and swallowing a few times as he tries to come up with things to say. "You know, you saved me?" he asks now. "Here I mean. You're the main reason I'm not some status quo asshole with no real direction or purpose or anything to care about. I think it's true of things there too. As much as I wanted to help...both times. You're the factor that made the biggest impact. and I..." Yeah those ARE tears now, but considering everything? It's probably not the world's biggest deal.

"I would like that. It would help I think. At least a bit." He manages.

And as for the last part of that, well. It's going to be better if Jehan never hears the behind the scenes stories from Tale's tech rehearsal week.

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