Gabriel, Archangel (![[info]](https://www.insanejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} thereisakingdom) wrote in ![[info]](https://www.insanejournal.com/img/community.gif){kind=small} utr_logs, |
Uzza nodded. "Shoo. If worst comes to worst and she kicks you out and yells or something, you can always sleep here." He grinned, standing up and going back to his room to sleep once more.
"Don't give me that fuckin' nightmare." Gabe said dryly, but he hugged Uzza before popping back to Hawaii. If he had to do this, at least he hoped she'd be home.
Lilo was home, and she was curled up on the couch, a blanket thrown over her body, waiting for him to arrive. Since he didn't come through the door or make any sound, she was still asleep, Dennis in her arms and Danger snoring softly on her feet.
It took him a few minutes more to get up the nerve to come in and look around. He was just about to yell when he saw Danger's tail flickering over the side of the couch. Coming over, he couldn't stop the faint smile, but he knew it wasn't happy. He didn't feel happy. He knelt down next to the couch and shook her gently. "Lilo?"
She fluttered her eyelids as she awoke, smiling when she saw him. "Hey. I was waiting up for you." She rubbed her eyes sleepily, moving to wrap her arms around him. "Sorry, I kind of suck at it. Where were you?"
"Japan. Seeing Uzza." Gabe wrapped his arms around her and hugged her tightly, as tightly as he could possibly manage without choking her.
Lilo nuzzled into his neck, sniffling a little. "I'm sorry. I don't know what I did, but I'm sorry I did it." She burrowed a little more, kissing gently. She felt terribly guilty about something, but she wasn't really sure what.
"No, no, it's my fault for being a twat." Gabriel stroked her hair, one big hand resting against the back of her head. He just blurted what he'd spoken about with Uzza. "I love you, and I want you to be safe, and I don't understand why you still trust that son of a bitch. Why you still love that son of a bitch. I can't stand the thought of anything happening to you."
She rubbed her damp eyes against his shoulder. "He's family. Have you never been hurt by something and still loved it? It's kind of like Dangercat. She bit me once when I gave her a bath, but I love her so much." She burrowed closer. "I don't want anything to happen to you either."
"Cats don't hurt you because they get off on pain." He didn't let her go, eyes closed. "I can't tell you who to be friends with. But you're human, and I'm not, and fuck, Lilo, it scares me so bad." He was doing his best to keep it together; he didn't want to lose it. He'd never get it back.
Lilo stroked his hair, leaning her forehead against his. "Gabe, I'll be fine. I promise, I won't do anything too stupid." She kissed him lightly, pulling him closer. "Just so you know, we talked about how he's going to handle what he is now - by being the same as he's ever been - and then I offered to babysit. That's it."
He had to work not to just lay his head on her chest and cry, but he kept his calm, at least for the most part. "I don't think like, you'll leave me. I don't think that. I just love you and want you safe." Gabe brushed his hair out of his eyes.
"Please don't think that." She cupped his cheeks, leaning back and looking at him fondly. "Please, I love you so much, don't worry about that. I'm safe, and I'm here, and everything is okay."
"I talked to Uzza, and he basically said I can't keep you safe. And it's true, but I just needed to hear it. But if anything happens to you - hell, whenever you die, I can't stand it." She was human. It would happen. But even now the idea hit him square in the gut. He rested his forehead against hers, too tired to bother wiping his eyes. "Just never loved anyone who wasn't immortal before." He didn't know how to cope.