"You are my constant desire," she said. "Everything else shifts and moves and changes. It is very frustrating. Just when I think I've pinned something down...something else distracts me."
It could be that she's putting too much pressure on herself to decide. She is, after all, truly sixteen years old and she's always believed that she would get married and have children...and that would be it.
This world is much more complicated, and the choices are vast.