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Tweak says, "Yeah. Up your ass!"

James Wilson (Med School) (wonderjimmy) wrote in utr_logs,
@ 2009-01-28 19:40:00

Entry tags:

greg house (younger), james wilson (younger)

Who: Wilson and House
What: Ugh, Drama!
Where: Their apartment
When: Monday
Rating: PG for now

Studying for the night had been thrown aside after the conversation with House. The other man had returned to his young state - to the state Wilson loved - and now there was turmoil between them. It had made him feel sick. The idea that he'd admitted he loved House while the other man didn't love him back made him sick. Within the hour he'd already thrown up twice and had finally slumped down on the couch, laying out across it. On his forehead he had a cool cloth and on the coffee table, a cup of ginger ale. Wilson didn't take stress all that well and he never had however the thought of all the shit that had gone down with House over the past week had pushed him over the edge and he was having a bit of a breakdown.

He shouldn't have associated with House. He shouldn't have let the man fuck him, or talk to him, or get near him. Wilson should have kept the doors and windows locked so he would have never felt compelled to say "I love you". So he would have never screwed shit up so badly that he feared House would leave him or use his homosexuality against him. The 'being gay' thing was still new to Wilson and at first it had been only about sex. He couldn't even pin point the exact moment it had stopped being just sex and had moved to love but it had happened somewhere along the way and he was scared.

Swallowing he reached over and picked up the glass of ginger ale, taking a little sip.

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sherlockhouse
2009-01-27 10:24 pm UTC (link)

Greg was angry, confused, and a bit tired. But he thought he had reason for all three. Tired was the easiet-he had spent the last few days twice his age. It zapped it out of a guy. Confused, because he had loved Wilson those days, and hard. He had missed Wilson, loved him, and wanted to stay near him for the companionship. For the trust. And he lost all those when he came back to being his normal age, and it felt...empty. And finally, he was angry. Wilson wouldn't admit at first to loving him, and that hurt, which made Greg angry. He didn't want to face a man who could hurt him. A man. He didn't know what happened, but in that time spent as his older self, he had become this...gay guy. And he didn't know what to do about it, or the feelings he had enjoyed feeling for someone, for Wilson.

He came back to their home with a bang of the door, stopping his snow covered boots before pulling them off and shutting the door behind him, keys getting put in the dish as he made a beeline for the fridge and a getting a beer.

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wonderjimmy
2009-01-27 10:33 pm UTC (link)

The door slammed open and Wilson dropped the glass in surprise, startled. He watched House's form as he passed by the living room and headed into the kitchen. To see House so upset made Wilson's heart sink he he, feeling guilty but not knowing why, slipped into the kitchen to get a towel. Thankfully the glass hadn't broken, but the ginger ale had spilled everywhere leaving a mess. Snatching up a dishtowel, trying not to bring attention to himself, Wilson tried to get back into the living room without being stopped. Without being noticed.

He didn't want to get hit or yelled at.

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sherlockhouse
2009-01-27 11:01 pm UTC (link)

Greg didn't plan on doing either, and he just watched the man out of the corner of his eye as he got the beer he was looking for and popped it open on the door of the fridge, taking a long drink before having a breath for air.

He watched Wilson go about cleaning up, leaning to the counter with his hip, and he rubbed a hand at his cold-red cheek.

"We have to talk," He had thought about it, and it came down to that.

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	wonderjimmy 2009-01-27 11:12 pm UTC (link)
	After he'd wiped up the mess first to soak it up and then to clean up the sticky-ness he returned to the kitchen with the glass and put it into the sink. Then House said those four words that he was scared of and Wilson nodded. "Yeah. Guess we do." Of course he felt a little sick again but moved to sit on the counter anyway, looking at House. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sherlockhouse 2009-01-27 11:18 pm UTC (link)
	Greg eyed Wilson for a moment, sipping his beer, "So, the last few days," He said, waving his hand, prompting something from Wilson, trying to get the ball rolling, "Thoughts?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wonderjimmy 2009-01-27 11:30 pm UTC (link)
	"It was weird." Wilson glanced down at his feet, shrugging. "But I liked it. You loved me." Licking his lips he blushed at the thought. "It was just different and I missed you but the o-other you was so confident." Running his fingers through his hair he then rubbed his eyes. What did House want him to say? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sherlockhouse 2009-01-27 11:45 pm UTC (link)
	Greg tilted his chin up, "I'm confident," He stated, challenging that of all things before huffing out a breath. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

wonderjimmy
2009-01-27 11:49 pm UTC (link)

"Yeah. You are. A lot more than...I am. I was just trying to say he had an air around him. Like he knew he could play my body like a fine tune instrument whether I wanted him to or not. It was just strange and obvious he had known me...for a long time." Now Wilson was just staring at his feet, not wanting to look at House. "But I love you more. You are my House and I just-I..." Trailing off he swallowed and put his face in his hands, shaking his head.

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	sherlockhouse 2009-01-28 12:31 am UTC (link)
	Greg felt almost offended by the man's talk of his older self. As if he was better. Why on Earth would Wilson tell him all that? He didn't know what to do about it. "Then obviously I do know you for a long time," He finally said, shrugging, "And why didn't you ever tell me you loved me?" As if that wasn't obvious. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wonderjimmy 2009-01-28 12:34 am UTC (link)
	"Because I'm not supposed to be gay!" He exclaimed, face still buried in his hands. "I'm not supposed to love a man. I'm scared of this. Scared you wouldn't return the feelings. Scared you'd laugh at me, mock me and then tell me to get out. This was just supposed to be around sex. I'm sorry." For loving House or for not telling him, it wasn't clear. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

sherlockhouse
2009-01-28 12:37 am UTC (link)

"Then it shows how much you know me," Greg said, slamming down his beer and storming from the kitchen towards the bedroom. Mock him? Laugh at him? That might have been what he'd do. But after what he had felt the last few days with Wilson..It hurt to think that. That was what his father would do, wasn't it? Mock Wilson for being a pansy, tell him to go outside until he thought better of his queer ass thoughts. No, that was what his father had told him to do. Greg scowled.

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	wonderjimmy 2009-01-28 12:39 am UTC (link)
	"G-Greg!" Wilson called out, sliding from the counter and heading after House. "Come back. Please don't...please don't leave me." He made it to the doorway just moments after House had entered the bedroom. Standing there he looked at House, tears in his eyes. "Please don't." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

sherlockhouse
2009-01-28 12:44 am UTC (link)

"You don't want me, you want him!" Greg said in reply, glaring at Wilson, shaking his head, "I don't know what happens to me, what changes me, but something does, and I pined for you! I openly loved you, in a way that I could understand! I don't know how that happens, and I want to know how!" He raised his voice a bit before sitting down on the bed, head going to his hands, "I don't know how."

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wonderjimmy
2009-01-28 12:53 am UTC (link)

"I don't want him. I don't want...something that is pre-made. I don't want him because everything has already happened between him and I. I want to grow with you." Wilson stated softly, hesitantly making his way over to the bed. "I want to figure it out with you how we got to t-that point. No quick and easy way. I want to learn it with you."

The young man sat down beside House on the bed.

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	sherlockhouse 2009-01-28 07:40 am UTC (link)
	Greg closed his eyes as he rubbed at his temples, "We'll fight," He stated, plain as day, shrugging his shoulders. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wonderjimmy 2009-01-28 09:05 am UTC (link)
	"I've never known a couple who...doesn't." Even though Wilson really didn't ever want to fight. He put and arm around House's waist and leaned into the man, eyes closed. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sherlockhouse 2009-01-28 01:41 pm UTC (link)
	Greg sighed. This was what happened when you were in love. His mother loved his father, but she still hurt him. His father loved him, but he still hurt him. And now. Now he loved Wilson, and he'd still hurt him. This was what happened when the House family fell in love. "Okay," He murmured, leaning his head to Wilson's, temple to temple. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wonderjimmy 2009-01-28 03:53 pm UTC (link)
	The gesture made him smile a little, even if his eyes were still watering and his nose a bit sniffly. "Good. Good." Suddenly he turned and pounced on House, hugging the man as he laid out against him. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sherlockhouse 2009-01-28 07:02 pm UTC (link)
	"Fuck," Greg was surprised, tensing up before realizing what was going on, laying out under the hug of Wilson, "Jesus...Give...warning." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wonderjimmy 2009-01-28 07:13 pm UTC (link)
	"Sorry." Wilson mumbled as he nuzzled House's shoulder, eyes closed. "I will next time." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sherlockhouse 2009-01-28 07:59 pm UTC (link)
	"Good," Greg said, just letting the man hug him, taking a slow breath and relaxing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wonderjimmy 2009-01-28 08:40 pm UTC (link)
	"Are we okay now?" He asked timidly. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sherlockhouse 2009-01-28 09:08 pm UTC (link)
	"I guess," Greg nodded once, closing his eyes and laying back on the bed. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wonderjimmy 2009-01-28 09:15 pm UTC (link)
	"Can you please...give me a straight answer?" Wilson asked softly, looking up at House. "I can't handle these 'I guess'es anymore. Either we're okay or we still need to talk." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sherlockhouse 2009-01-28 09:29 pm UTC (link)
	Greg looked at Wilson with a befuddled and grumpy sort of surprise, "We're okay," He said finally, eying the man before laying his head back down. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wonderjimmy 2009-01-28 09:32 pm UTC (link)
	Satisfied with that, Wilson settled against House with his eyes closed. He gently stroked his fingers over the other man's arm, just craving the touch. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sherlockhouse 2009-01-28 09:50 pm UTC (link)
	Greg didn't mind the touch, just relaxing against the bed, happy to feel young enough to enjoy the mattress no matter what. He could remember the ache in his back and he just didn't care for it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wonderjimmy 2009-01-28 10:12 pm UTC (link)
	He leaned up and kissed his lover's jaw softly with a little smile, hoping to get his lover to relax a bit more. After all the man seemed a little bit tense right then and he wanted to relieve that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sherlockhouse 2009-01-28 11:04 pm UTC (link)
	Greg sighed with the kiss, shifting a little, enjoying the contact and just getting more comfortable. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wonderjimmy 2009-01-29 12:01 am UTC (link)
	He smoothed his fingers over House's jaw, kissing his neck, all the while smiling a little bit to himself as his lover became more relaxed beneath him. Wilson snuggled up close to the older man with a hum, hand moving to rest against House's shoulder where his fingers kneaded the muscles. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sherlockhouse 2009-01-29 12:08 am UTC (link)
	Greg could appreciate this gesture, though he wasn't sure he felt up to it going any further, and wanted that known without stopping the touches now. He yawned and had a slight smile, looking at Wilson, "I missed you," He said simply, echoing words he had said as the older version, words he had thought over and over. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wonderjimmy 2009-01-29 12:13 am UTC (link)
	That of course made Wilson smile and he leaned in to kiss House on the lips gently, warmly, before resting his head against the man's shoulder. "I missed you too." He replied, his hand stilling while still resting against House's shoulder. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sherlockhouse 2009-01-29 12:34 am UTC (link)
	"Mm," Greg hummed into the kiss, hand raising to stroke his fingers along Wilson's cheek before the man lay back down and Greg closed his eyes again, "Now sleep." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wonderjimmy 2009-01-29 12:42 am UTC (link)
	He nodded and remained silent for a moment, before shifting a little to hide his face in House's shoulder. There was no way that night he was going to let go of the man, that much was sure. He was far too worried his lover would vanish again and because of such a view he fell asleep clinging to House. (Reply to this) (Parent)