"That's the thing, I don't know. I wish I did. I don't like being sad. I don't want it. I just... I want to stop being so sad. I don't even want to forget him - I'd miss my memories - I just want to be past things." She wrapped her arms around Bill in a hug, and blinked when she found him refreshingly cool. It was novel. "You would've been great when I had mono, you know."