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Malakai Chmelyk // 'Volos' (volos) wrote in utr_logs,
@ 2008-10-31 23:07:00

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malakai chmelyk, rurik markov

Who: Malakai Chmelyk (again) and Rurik Markov
What: Kai's week gets even worse, and he seeks comfort in familiarity.
When/Where: Tonight, Rurik's place in France
Warnings: Vampirism, discussion of past drama, possibly sex. Otherwords, Yes.

As he expected, Malakai had a difficult time making his journey straight to Paris, given the amount of mayhem and blood riddling the streets. For once, he wasn't the one causing it, and this was both strange and almost lamentable to the old vampire. Still, he had other things on his mind, above and beyond the sudden outbreak of chaos, and he focused his thoughts on reaching his old friend, and working through the events of the week.

A son. He had a son. The dreams had been troubling enough, but to see that man, from them, describe them so perfectly. He was dhampir. He never knew his father. It was all too much of a coincidence, and so it couldn't be a coincidence.

As he landed in Paris off the portkey, his mind was drawn from its thoughts by the familiar stench of dog, and it was sobering enough to have him running swiftly to Rurik's door. He let himself in, for once thankful for the ability to do so, before shutting and locking the door behind him.

"Rurik, old friend. Please tell me you're not dog-food," He was never one for conventional greetings. To do so would only betray the worry already much too evident, on his face.

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spellseeker
2008-10-31 10:39 pm UTC (link)

"I'm quite certain my bones have not yet been buried out back," Rurik replied, stepping out from the small kitchen to greet Kai. he moved toward his beloved friend, and embraced him. The physical contact was a new feat for him, symbolic of his trust in Kai.

"I hadn't expected you quite yet, darling." He smiled, dropping the customary kiss of the French, one to each cheek in turn.

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volos
2008-10-31 10:44 pm UTC (link)

Malakai relaxed some, when he felt Rurik embrace him. While it was a new development, it had been a long time coming, and there was a comfort there that he needed, after everything.

"I told you, I would make haste. There is much to much at had, to be wandering about, even for one such as me." He had seen ghosts, fires, werewolves, zombies, all on the short trip from London to Paris. While it was beautiful, in its own right, he didn't want to take the time to be that... animal, right now. He had matters to attend to.

With the barest of smiles, he returned the kisses, before stepping back enough to head further inside, to the couch to sit down. "I am sorry for all of this, darling, but much has happened, since I saw you last. I rather need to... collect myself, if you will."

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spellseeker
2008-10-31 10:52 pm UTC (link)

"Of course," Rurik nodded. "I was just preparing a pot of coffee. I'll see to that, while you unwind." He smiled a gentle smile. His eyes looked to Kai for a reaction, for if Kai had other ideas, other matters that Rurik could perhaps help attend, Rurik would gladly abandon his coffee in favor of assisting his friend any way he could. He hoped he was able to sufficiently convey that, wit his look and slight tilt of his head.

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volos
2008-10-31 11:01 pm UTC (link)

He nodded, leaning back in the couch some. "I will be fine for a moment, dear. Go, tend to your coffee." Malakai would take advantage of the moment, to try and sort through his thoughts, to decide exactly what he wanted to tell his lover. It wasn't an attempt at deceit, or omission, but... he knew that whatever Rurik told him to do, he was going to end up doing. The man was, in essence, his human mind, a moral compass. He needed to prepare himself for the idea that he might have to face his own demons, sooner than he'd planned.

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spellseeker
2008-10-31 11:10 pm UTC (link)

Rurik gave Kai's shoulder a firm squeeze before moving back to the kitchen. He'd nearly finished setting the coffee to brew, all that was left was to add the water and turn the machine on. He did so rather hastily, eager to return to Kai.

He stood in the doorway watching the vampire for a moment. "Are you quite all right, Old Friend?" he asked, brow knitted in concern.

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volos
2008-10-31 11:22 pm UTC (link)

"Not quite, Lover. I.. come, sit, please," The space was unsettling to Malakai, not wanting Rurik to assume he was somehow in danger. Regardless of the last time Kai had come to the witch in such a state, he was rather in control, now. At least, as much as he could be, with his thoughts so disjointed.

"I met a dhampir, on the boards, the other day. A little whelp of a thing. She was hungry, and I took her some blood from a hospital I'd ransacked." It was something of a non-sequitor, although it probably held meaning for Rurik; Malakai was hardly the type to find it in himself to help feed those of his own House when they were ill, let alone a half-breed. It was a sign of great personal growth, and also inevitably, of something being wrong. At least in Malakai's mind.

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	spellseeker 2008-10-31 11:35 pm UTC (link)
	Rurik listened to Kai speak. He was silent for a moment, mulling over what the vampire said. He looked to Kai, a hand to his chin. "What's wrong, then?" he asked, eyes softening as he read the generosity as compensation for something else. Given the worked up state Kai showed to be in, Rurik was certain the kindness hasn't helped. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

volos
2008-10-31 11:43 pm UTC (link)

He sighed, wringing his hands as he continued, for once actually appearing uncertain; completely uncharacteristic of him.

"The girl, when she was speaking on those things. She found another. A boy- man, really, who..." He pursed his lips, taking a moment to collect himself. "I dreamed of him, Rurik. This Dhampir. And... from what I saw, he's suffered the same." A beat, as he debated admitting the fear aloud.

In for an inch... "He's my son, Rurik. I sought him out, afterward, and.. he's mine,"

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	spellseeker 2008-10-31 11:51 pm UTC (link)
	"You sought him out? You spoke to him?" Rurik turned sideways, sitting to face Kai on the expanse of his sofa. "You're certain he's your son?" Rurik felt his heart thump his chest. he wasn't sure if he was glad, scared, or jealous at the idea of Malakai having a son. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

volos
2008-10-31 11:55 pm UTC (link)

"I did not make myself known, anymore than by proximity alone. You know full well we can sense another, and I... knew, when I saw him. He's my son." He sighed at the admission again; Kai lived with the belief that to speak something was to give it power, make it real. This conversation was his way of trying to validate- or invalidate- the entire situation.

"Before you ask, no, I've no recollection of him, or his mother. I've tried to think of it, but he is over a century old. Much has changed for me, between then and now." He was a much different man, then. Much less of a man. He was certain whatever the man did know about him, it wasn't positive.

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spellseeker
2008-11-01 12:05 am UTC (link)

Rurik nodded. "I rather expect you don't recall much, a century back." Kai had been far less...dare he think it, civilized, back then. It was true enough, Kai himself couldn't dispute, but Rurik wouldn't put it in to words.

"Nor do I, come to think." He shrugged, running a hand through his hair. "You ought to speak with him. The fact he hasn't contacted you leads me to think he doesn't know your identity."

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	volos 2008-11-01 12:09 am UTC (link)
	Malakai shook his head. "He told the girl, Renesmee-" Might as well add a name to the idea, "That he never knew his father. He figured what he was, obviously thanks to his age, so... there is no real reason to seek him out," Still, it was obvious that the knowledge of his existence wasn't something Malakai was prepared to brush off. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	spellseeker 2008-11-01 12:26 am UTC (link)
	"No reason, save the fact he is your son." Rurik put a hand to Kai's arm. He was safe, himself, in the knowledge he had no children about. Impossible, given his history of sexual encounters. "To have a child, even one a century old, is a beautiful thing, Kai. It's a part of you, living independent of you." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

volos
2008-11-01 12:29 am UTC (link)

His face soured at the man's words, and while he didn't remove himself from the touch, he made no move to reutrn it. "A part of me, from one century ago. A part of the monster," It was hypocritical, for him to hold his vampiric nature against the boy, but in reality, it both scared and shamed Kai, to think that he had created a life, only to make it as cursed as his had become.

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spellseeker
2008-11-01 12:34 am UTC (link)

"This is a chance to show that you have changed, Kai. You are not as you were, certainly. You are..." domesticated seemed harsh in its truth. Rurik sought a gentler word, less offensive. "You are a good man, Kai. You've made mistakes, some by choice, others by nature that you can't help. But when you are in control of the beast, you are a good man. Your son deserves to know that."

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volos
2008-11-01 12:55 am UTC (link)

"You make it seem so simple, Rurik. How can I honestly... face him, after this all? He has managed to survive the century without me. It would only complicate matters for the both of us, to barge in now. I-"

Malakai shook his head, before leaning down to rest it against Rurik's shoulder. "I know you are right, at least in theory," He didn't quite agree with Rurik, that he was changed, or good, or any of that. But he didn't have the will to have that fight, just then. "But I can't help but feel selfish, for wishing to indulge that curiousity.

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spellseeker
2008-11-01 10:03 am UTC (link)

"It's a natural curiosity, darling." Rurik moved his hand to sroke his fingers along Kai's arm. Odd, that he was seeking to comfort his friend. He wasn't entirely sure how to go about it. "This is your son, your flesh and blood, Malakai. That is huge. You've every right to want to meet him, speak to him, know him. The worst that might happen is he turns you out, and you're no worse off then, than you are now."

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volos
2008-11-01 07:58 pm UTC (link)

Just Rurik's calm nature was helping Malakai hang on, as it always did, and he heaved a deep, unnecessary sigh. "And so I speak to him, introduce myself. Then what? It's not as though I have anything to offer the child... if I had." A hand moved up to knead his forehead. "If I had known of him. 'Had tried to bring him into the House, they would have killed him without question. He has been better off without me since birth.

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	spellseeker 2008-11-01 09:06 pm UTC (link)
	"He's not a child, Kai. He's lived over a century. Impressive, for a half breed. He is strong, that alone is evidence." Rurik drew his hand back and scratched at his neck. "And there is no House to snuff out his life, now." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	volos 2008-11-01 09:18 pm UTC (link)
	"And yet I just..." He shook his head. "I suppose I shall just take it as it comes. I cannot... upset myself so, over this. Nothing will come of it, anyhow," Whether Kai thought that revelation was a good thing or not remained to be seen. Sniffing the air, he moved his head over his shoulder. "Your coffee is ready, darling," (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	spellseeker 2008-11-01 09:34 pm UTC (link)
	"Perhaps I might keep an eye on him for a few days?" Rurik suggested. "I could trail him, and after a few day's time, you could decide if you wish to speak to him." It seemed reasonable to Rurik. He understood Kai's hesitation, at the same time thinking it foolish. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	volos 2008-11-01 09:40 pm UTC (link)
	It was enough to have Malakai making a face, shaking his head more obviously. "No, no. That's- I'm really being that ridiculous about this all, aren't I?" He scoffed a dry laugh, running a hand through his hair. "I just... do not know what to do. How to start. Or if it will even help the dreams, to meet him." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

spellseeker
2008-11-01 09:47 pm UTC (link)

Rurik patted Kai's thigh and rose to head to the kitchen to prepare a cup of coffee. He was away only a few minutes, just long enough to pour the coffee and fix it to his liking. He returned with the steaming mug.

"If the dreams are connected to him, Kai, I don't know that you have much choice. You know how it is with dreams. They rarely flitter away unless or until you hear what they say and heed the warnings within."

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volos
2008-11-01 10:05 pm UTC (link)

His lips pursed at that, again. "That is what I fear, darling. The dreams I have... they are fires. Terrible, terrible fires. Everyone in the area is dying, I know of it, I can hear them. Except for him. I don't know if he is dead already, or if he lives." Malakai had no real reason to fear fire; it wasn't any more dangerous to him dead, than it was alive. But it was one of those qualms he never quite got over, and he wasn't sure he could handle the prospect of a blaze, even for his son.

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	spellseeker 2008-11-01 10:34 pm UTC (link)
	"The fire must be connected to him, or he to the fire." Rurik sipped his coffee, holding the mug in both hands. The caffeine, if Kai were to drink from him, would give Kai an extra boost. Rurik went silent, lost in thought for a moment. He looked back to Kai. "How old is he, precisely? You said he is more than a century, but do you have an exact number?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)