"I really..." Carrie laughed. It sounded empty. "I believed in you. And I didn't get why Dick's always been... the way he is with you. But you left me. And I can't just forget that." The world blurred. "You left me." Her voice was thick, now, and she hated herself for it. "And Dick and Jason and Cassandra - and the two of them were in the hospital - and you left Cuddy. And little Dick. And Alfred. And you fucked half of us up." She was crying, but she didn't stop. "So you can't expect us to just welcome you back or forgive you when the person I believed in completely just left me for whatever stupid reason. You were my father and my best friend and my Batman and I was stupid... I was so stupid to think that there was someone I could count on. Everyone else back home taught me that people are shit and I shouldn't have..."
She shook her head and tried to take a deep breath to calm herself but her chest was heaving. She was including the others in her speech, but she was almost entirely talking about herself. Bringing a hand up to her face, she covered her eyes and wiped away tears. "And I still can't even fucking hate you like I want to hate you because I'm that fucking stupid." Angry at herself, at Bruce, at this stupid world for making him even less her Bruce than he had been, Carrie just breathed and told herself to calm down.