She bit her lip and closed her eyes. It would be a lot easier to tell him what she wanted to say without looking at him.
"I ... couldn't stop thinking about you. But I wanted to be sure it was for the right reasons. I haven't... I haven't done that in so long, and I wanted to make sure I couldn't get you out of my head for the right reasons. So I ... with someone else. But afterward, I thought about you." She shrugged one shoulder, hoping that didn't sound horrible.
"It sounds terrible, but because I could with someone else and still think of you, I'd like to try something. With just you."