Henry closed his eyes. He knew that was coming. There was no easy way to explain this because it still didn't make sense to him, not completely, but before he knew it words were pouring out of his mouth and all he could do was hope they made some sense. "I've got friends. I know I do. It's just...there's just been so much stuff coming at me so fast. The whole thing back home with Walter, and then just when that was calming down, I get pulled out of my own universe and into this one. Then, soon after I show up, the time shift starts and what's the first thing that happens? I take a gutshot from a cowboy. Then I end up in a town full of cultists and monsters and almost get killed a ton of times, and I even get to see the big daddy monster which, I'm sure, scrambled my head up a little bit. Then I have to kill three guys during World War II because I had the misfortune of being a soldier in the middle of a battle. So then, things start getting back to normal and I think maybe it's time for a break, and then bam, the Esoteric Order of Dagon shows up to let me know they can kill me whenever they want but they won't just yet, and then this."
With a ragged sigh, he turned and thumped against the wall, sliding down into a sitting position. "All of that in rapid succession. And I'll be honest, I was dealing. Maybe not very well, but enough to handle it. But I can't stop thinking about Eileen. I've been hoping for her to show up since the day I got here, and I kind of figured that after everything, after getting gutshot by a cowboy, nearly killed by cultists, and then being forced into a position where I had to kill some people...I guess I just figured maybe it was finally time for me to catch a break. Finally time for Eileen to show up. And she didn't, instead I got a cult and a rampaging ghost."
He shook his head, letting it fall hopelessly into his hands. "And in the end, what do I have to show for all this? At the end of the day, when all the friends go home, what am I left with? A big empty house, a big empty bed, and a big gaping hole in my heart that seems to get bigger every day." After a long pause, he finishesd, "So this was it. This was the straw that broke my back. It was just one thing too many and I couldn't deal anymore." A croaking, mirthless laugh tore its way from his lips. "So that's the truth, Dean. That's the god's honest. I don't know if any of that makes sense, but it's all I've got."