Sean
I got plenty idea. I worry about you all the damn time and this ain't like touring when I know I can go home whenever I want and tell my robot guy to fucking fuck whatever I got scheduled and just be with you if I need to but I CAN'T and jesus I get so scared about shit it's just STUPID but...
fucking fuck I can't even breathe sometimes. This ain't even like being with my band. I knew those guys and we could, y'know, be there with each other. This is way more like being kind of alone. I can't even go see Bill whenever I want to. it's okay when I'm busy and don't think about it but every time I DO it gets worse and
i just miss you.
I miss hearing you talk and I miss falling asleep next to you and I miss everything so much...