No you're not sounding like an idiot. I deal with jealousy on a daily basis. And it's .. hard to juggle my life mostly because if I stopped trying to keep everything in balance then.. lots of people are going to get hurt. Really hurt. So I guess what I'm saying is that I understand, and if you think not.. y'know.. with me is the best thing, then that's okay. I don't want to pressure if you think it's gong to turn out badly.