I suggest doing some research into the world you're in now, Winston. It's not as chaotic as you might think, and it sure as hell isn't scarier than what you've already lived.
You might be happy to find yourself in this world after a while. I'm sure it's MASSIVE culture shock for you to be here, but hell, it might just help you be your own man again.
Hey, there's schools that you could actually gain more than just knowledge for your research. It might even help you integrate better here.