Mia
Well, that and I can only imagine that the Order changed after the Jedi Civil War. The person I learned from was actually exiled and told to never use the Force again. I can't imagine that kind of pain. I wouldn't wish that on anyone. They did it to preserve the "Order", to cover up for their mistakes during the war.
Maybe it's not the fault of every Jedi. Maybe it's just leaders, and groups that are messed up. But all I know is that during the Civil War, the average person just saw someone with a lightsaber that wasn't scare of reading thoughts and pushing to get what they wanted. I really hope that changed with time. I saw the Sith do things way more terrible than the Jedi, eventually. But still. I don't mind calling myself a Jedi, but I'd never be part of the Order, unless I saw actual change.