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As to the first, I intend to do just that, as soon as I'm able to navigate it. Charities aren't as simple now as they were in my time. Though, I'm not entirely sure they've ever been simple, but the sheer amount of red tape and not knowing exactly where a donation is going to be used is ... troubling.
As to the second, that's ... more difficult to explain. I've always been an outsider, likely always will be, though it isn't for the same reason now as it was before.