The rake? You don't seem the type. And no, that's not a temptation at all. Perhaps I'm just resisting this idea that there's really no way back. Taking on duties here means acknowledging that the ones behind me are gone. That's inconceivable, frankly.
It's one of the most important parts of the job, I believe. And I don't object to speaking on a personal level. In fact I appreciate it. Though fortunately I have a partner of my own who's very adept at making sure things don't go too much to my head.