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Tweak says, ""Manos" The Hands of Fate"

Sidney "Onyxx" Green (_onyxx) wrote in undertherainbow,
@ 2008-09-23 19:29:00

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domino, onyxx

I'm going to Tibet. If Candy ever comes back from this stupid little stunt of hers, you tell her if she wants to talk to me she can come find me in whatever snowy mountain cave I've decided to hole up in. I'll be there until I don't feel so fucking homicidal. Which probably means a good long while.

I know right now this is probably the least of your worries, but the team's gonna need a temporary leader voted in. I'm going to Tibet and probably won't be back until I feel less like tearing off the heads of anyone that looks at me wrong. Sorry, but I figure this is better than the PR nightmare of me ripping off some bank robber's head when he mouths off.

ETA: I'm going to be incommunicado for a while. Honestly? I'd prefer to be alone, but if you feel like you need to visit, I won't dodge you. I'm going to Tibet, living up in a cave until I feel like I'm ready to come back. You guys are going to pick a temporary leader until I get back. Oh, and if you do visit, don't sneak up on me because chances are if you do, you'll get smacked.

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	Onyxx teenwonder 2008-09-23 06:40 pm UTC (link)
	Be careful and low profile. Tibetans tend to just live their lives like anyone else, but running into Chinese nationals is a bad idea. And try not to rip off any heads in Asia, either. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Dick _onyxx 2008-09-23 06:43 pm UTC (link)
	I'm gonna do the whole "hole up in a cave and live like a mountain man" thing. Pretty sure I won't run into anyone up there, but if I do I'll do my best not to flip my shit. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Onyxx thelonggame 2008-09-23 08:15 pm UTC (link)
	...What is going on? What is Candy doing? Why Tibet? We can drop supplies now and then if you want, just basic things until you are ready to come home. Also, if you ever want to spar, I am available. Domino will probably be along to have her own say. (Reply to this) (Thread)

Cable

_onyxx
2008-09-23 08:35 pm UTC (link)

The Joker has apparently "fallen in love" with Candy.

Candy is going to "take care of things". She left a note on our door and I came home to find it. She didn't even bother talking about it with me, she just decided to do this totally on her own, even knowing that I remember the life I lived where she was murdered. Which is why I am so unbelievably pissed about this.

Because the mountains there are very tall, and in the higher places the chances of me running into anyone are infinitesimally small. This means the chances that I might flip my shit on the wrong person and inadvertently end up with a murder rap are also infinitesimally small. Plus I hear it's good for doing some philosophizing and soul searching.

I appreciate that, but I feel like I really need to learn to survive on my own. Since Candy pretty clearly isn't going to give me a chance to reason with her when it comes to dangerous things like this, I figure I should learn not to be so dependent on her for my own psychological well being. I need to deal with the issues that the other life I lived shoveled on to me, and maybe then I'll be able to calm down and come back. I'm going for the whole survival experience, complete with hunting my own food and all that. I think it will help.

When I come back, I think I might just take you up on that offer.

...How do you deal with all this alternate timeline crap, man? I thought I was dealing, but then all this Joker shit happened and now I'm barely clinging to my sanity.

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thelonggame
2008-09-23 08:49 pm UTC (link)

...oh, Bright Lady!

While I can't say I approve of her actions, a lot of people act so, sadly. Does she even have any idea of this guy's abilities, or his weaknesses.

And alternate timelines are hard. Seeing people who look the same but are different, or are the same, but look different, is hard.

And sometimes, the worst, is when things seem fine, until something happens that reminds you of the other timeline, and it shakes you. I do understand, and it is hard, but you have to remember this. You are not alone. It may seem like it, but you aren't. Do what you need to do, go where you need to go, but remember this; walking away and thinking might help some, but the best thing to do for dealing with issues is to face them.

You are welcome on the ship anytime. You always will be. Call, and we will come.

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Cable

_onyxx
2008-09-23 08:59 pm UTC (link)

She says she does. I'm not exactly confident that she's right, and right now, I'm not exactly confident that she'd tell me the truth about it anyway.

That's exactly what is going on here. This guy is a psychopath of the worst kind, and I keep thinking about the other life, the one where I lost her, and how fucking close I'm coming now to losing her again, with her walking right into the psychopaths hands.

...Why can't she understand? Losing her once destroyed me. Losing her again is going to annihilate me.

Thank you. I appreciate that, really and truly.

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	Onyxx thelonggame 2008-09-23 09:02 pm UTC (link)
	Right. Maybe she can only see what she feels she is needing to do. People can get tied into that themselves. And maybe she has a reason. We can't know unless she tells us. All you can do is choose how you react, and choose what to believe. All you can do... in the end, is live. Anytime. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Cable _onyxx 2008-09-23 09:07 pm UTC (link)
	That's going to be a huge part of what I do with my time in Tibet. I'm going to try and figure out how I want to live, and how I want to handle this really fucked up curve ball life's decided to throw me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Onyxx thelonggame 2008-09-23 09:17 pm UTC (link)
	If you need any advice in particular, let me know.I've been around a lot and had my share of dumb moves and strange curveballs. If I can help at all, let me know. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Cable _onyxx 2008-09-23 09:21 pm UTC (link)
	Thanks, I will. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Onyxx ex_luckbeala72 2008-09-23 08:18 pm UTC (link)
	I understand what you're doing, and why you need to do it. If you need anything, send up a signal and we'll do what we can. What exactly is Candy doing? Does this have anything to do with the clown guy? (Reply to this) (Thread)

Domino

_onyxx
2008-09-23 08:40 pm UTC (link)

Thanks. I appreciate that.

It has everything to do with him. She's going to "take care of things". She left a note on our door, just went off without even talking about it with me.

The alternate timeline week thing...I lost her, Domino. She was murdered by a bunch of bigoted humans, and I spent so many years living with that emptiness inside me. Unfortunately I'm not one of the lucky ones that got to forget their alternate lives, and now she goes and does this.

...Part of me thinks I should just go to Tibet and never come back.

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Onyxx

ex_luckbeala72
2008-09-23 08:44 pm UTC (link)

Oh Jesus Horatio Tap Dancing Christ.

I understand. Loosing someone so close to you. . . it's hard. Especially when they just walk away, as though it means nothing.

I've been on the other side of that often enough to know that she probably won't listen to reason, or come back until she's done what she needs to do.

Even if it's retarded.

I'll try to talk some sense into her, but I doubt it will work. But I'll try to help keep her safe. If she'll even let me.

Anyway, what you decide to do is up to you. I can't blame you for wanting to leave her. But only time will tell if you'll blame yourself for it.

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Domino

_onyxx
2008-09-23 08:50 pm UTC (link)

That was pretty much my reaction, only...less eloquent.

Thank you. Doubt she'll listen to anyone, but hey. Worth a shot.

That's part of the reason I'm going to Tibet. Because right now, I'm really feeling the urge to leave my own note on the door that says "Goodbye". But since I am nowhere near calm right now, I figure I should head somewhere to get calm and then decide, and Tibet, I think, is the best place for me to do that.

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	Onyxx ex_luckbeala72 2008-09-23 08:52 pm UTC (link)
	It's the least I can do. And that's probably the best idea. Tibet's a very beautiful and serene country too. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Domino _onyxx 2008-09-23 09:02 pm UTC (link)
	If you do talk to her...just tell her that I'm in Tibet, and if she wants to talk to me, she can come find me. I'm not going to come running back to her with my arms out wide, if she wants to fix this she can come to me. Yeah, I always see these pictures and postcards and things and so I thought, maybe it's finally time for me to go there. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Onyxx ex_luckbeala72 2008-09-23 09:16 pm UTC (link)
	I will. Take care. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Domino _onyxx 2008-09-23 09:17 pm UTC (link)
	Thanks. You too. (Reply to this) (Parent)