She shook her head, hands coming up to cover her face, trying to hide the tears that suddenly came. She couldn't tell him, and it was hitting her again how wrong and unnatural her feelings were in the eyes of everyone else. He wouldn't take it well, she was convinced, he would probably send her back to mother just because he was so ashamed of her. He loved her, but she was bringing such shame to the family and he would have to make sure it did not touch everyone else in the family.
"I can't, please, Chris. I cannot let you see me any differently than you do now. I couldn't stand to see disgust in your eyes when you look at me."