Natalia Romanova (![[info]](https://www.insanejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} redledgerkiller) wrote in ![[info]](https://www.insanejournal.com/img/community.gif){kind=small} toboldlyrpg, |
She came to look over at Bruce for the moment as she gave him a flatline smile. "You don't get it, Bruce. That's all I know. It's what I am. Spy, Assassin, Avenger, fugitive." She replied as she sipped at that drink once more as she watched Tony dance around and a few others do the same. he had the right idea, didn't he? Get lost in his demons.
But the thing was, Nat's demons weren't like the others. But it was something she'd deal with it as she always did. On her own. "You're not like us, Bruce. You got your second chance, and I'm happy for you I really am, but not all of us are that lucky. Besides, you had Betty long before you had the Hulk. You had a normal life. Some of us... For me this." She motioned to everyone having fun.
"Isn't normal for me. Being carefree isn't normal. I'm literally not programmed for normal. I just know how to blend in until something happens. "She said and if he heard closely he'd hear that light sniffle as she sipped at her bottle. Her normal was this, with Barton. And he wasn't here. Which meant one thing. She would revert into herself as a default.
Can't get hurt if you don't care. But she did smile to Bruce. "Come on Bruce, you have better things to do than worry about me. So, don't."