Sunday November 30th 2008
Who: Godric and Will What: Tha angel comes back to the BGH Where: The BGH When: Sunday evening Rating: R for language Note: Aimscene
rockmyfkngworld *knocks on the front door of the BGH*
longagogodric *answers the door, running his fingers through his hair, surprised by who is on the other side* Oh... William.
rockmyfkngworld *quietly* I said I'd... be over....
longagogodric *pauses a moment, then remembers* So you did. Come in, please.
rockmyfkngworld *hands in pockets as he strolls in, shoulders hunched as he immediately sits on the sofa*
rockmyfkngworld *glances at him* It's over. Last night. We ended it.
longagogodric *nodding, slowly* I see.
rockmyfkngworld I'm.... needing a place to stay. If you will have me back here.
longagogodric I think we can accomodate.
rockmyfkngworld *nods* Ok.
longagogodric *gives a moments pause, then gently* Despite how... adamant I was against your marriage, I am sorry that it is ending.
rockmyfkngworld Yeah. Me too. *small sigh and a tremble then really quiet* i came here because you're - the only person I could think of to really help me. I don't.... know what to do now. James has Fisher to go back to, but.... where do I go back to?
longagogodric *mulling it over a moment* What were you doing before James?
rockmyfkngworld Figuring out what the hell I was doing.
longagogodric Then that's what you need to do again.
rockmyfkngworld *laughs a little* No.
longagogodric What was it that brought you here, to Danvers I mean?
rockmyfkngworld *considering* Haddon had died. My abilities had faded. I was grieving but I had no idea how to let it out... so I came here. Met Fisher. He introduced me to the concept of friends and emotion, and he encouaged it...
longagogodric *interrupting* Right well... disregarding that disaster... You had come here to figure out where to go. And now you're in the exact same position. So... do what you did then. Only... perhaps more carefully, this time.
rockmyfkngworld *silent for two seconds* I did nothing then. All I did was stumble and find fucking Fisher and end up shooting my life even more down the shit pipe. I hadn't figured out fuck. I hadn't.... there wasn't anything
longagogodric If there wasn't anything, then you wouldn't have had anything to lose, now would you. There is always something.
rockmyfkngworld I don't... I don't understandt hat.
longagogodric If you didn't have anything, then you wouldn't feel so empty from losing it.
rockmyfkngworld I had James. I had Fisher. And then Fisher fucked off, and James fucked off. But before either of them, I had nothing. I've already lost them... and now I'm back to nothing.
longagogodric You need to look at it in more base components, Will. Before, you were making friends, you were opening yourself up to people. You were letting yourself thrive. You need to begin that again.
rockmyfkngworld Didn't feel like I was thriving.
longagogodric Well... you just lost a husband and a friend, I'd have to say you were doing well.
rockmyfkngworld *breathes down his nose* I'm sure he considered me a friend. I'm sure they're both really cut up over this.
longagogodric It doesn't matter what they think. They are not important, they are garbage. They are inconsequential. Sweep them into the dustbin and be done with them.
rockmyfkngworld *closes his eyes, shaking a little* I don't think they have a bin inside a bin.
longagogodric The point is, what you do from now on should not even consider them. They didn't consider you, did they?
rockmyfkngworld *sniffles then tries to disguise it* No.
longagogodric Right. So.... *smiling a little* Fuck those bitches.
rockmyfkngworld *fixes eyes on him then laughs* Really?
longagogodric *a little embarassed* You heard me.
rockmyfkngworld *chuckles then calms down a little* I've lost more than them, though. Devon, and Rocky... my whole family's been taken.
longagogodric You haven't lost them. Rocky is her own woman and can make her own decisions. And Devon.... well technically, as a stepfather you do have certain visitation rights, especially since you both getting married was one of the driving forces in him staying with you.
rockmyfkngworld *rubs eyes in an effort to wipe them* I'm already sick of this shit and it's barely been 24 hours.
longagogodric It only gets worse from here.
rockmyfkngworld *groans* Thakns
longagogodric It will. And you need to set yourself ready for it now, before the storm hits.
rockmyfkngworld *puts on old english accent* Battle down the hatches, right.
longagogodric Oh lord, my father used to say that...
rockmyfkngworld He did?
longagogodric Mm. "Battle down the hatches, Ric my son, the storm is coming in." He liked to think of himself as a captain of his industry. *small, nostalgic smile* He was... unusual.
rockmyfkngworld *smiles a little* He sounds like he was a tough guy.
longagogodric He was, in a way. I don't remember much about him but... *pauses, looking at Will* Well. Irrelevant. We're talking about you, remember?
rockmyfkngworld Not irrelevant. But fine, carry on. My favourite subject.
longagogodric Yes, we all know too well.
rockmyfkngworld *smirk* Well hey, you could have kept talking....
longagogodric I could have. So what is your plan from here on?
rockmyfkngworld *shrug* Don't do what I did today. Not for a while.
longagogodric *expression falling* Oh no, what did you do?
rockmyfkngworld *cheeky smile*
longagogodric William!
rockmyfkngworld Oooh you so cute when you're concerned... tell me more about your Dad.
longagogodric Tell me what you did today.
rockmyfkngworld Tell me about your Dad and I will.
longagogodric His name was Richard. What did you do today?
rockmyfkngworld I went out. What else was he like?
longagogodric *frowning* Where did you go?
rockmyfkngworld I went to IHOP and a thrift store. What was he like?
longagogodric With who?
rockmyfkngworld I bet he was tall. With black hair.
longagogodric *sighs* He was.... I don't really know, to be honest. My mother says that I look exactly like him.
rockmyfkngworld *studies him a second* Syn.
longagogodric *soft groan* You're dating? A professor?
rockmyfkngworld *blank* I'm not dating....
longagogodric Good, because it is ill advised.
rockmyfkngworld I just fucked him in the dressing room.
longagogodric *stares a moment, then puts his face in his hands* For goodness sake, Will...
rockmyfkngworld What? It was good. We're friends. Have been for years and years.... it was good. Very good. Until the clerk came and interrupted us....
longagogodric *says nothing*
rockmyfkngworld She kinda wanted to call the cops. I persuaded her not to. *shrug*
longagogodric *still nothing, face in hands*
rockmyfkngworld ....what?
longagogodric *same position* Oh, nothing. I am just curious as all. *is
rockmyfkngworld I'm sure I can screw you if you want.
longagogodric *ignoring him* I am curious as to why it is that I always end up attracting people who make the absolute worst decisions for themselves.
rockmyfkngworld is available longagogodric *ignoring him* I am curious as to why it is that I always end up attracting people who make the absolute worst decisions for themselves.
rockmyfkngworld *leans back on the sofa* You include yourself in that?
longagogodric *turns his head slightly to look at him* Only for my choice in friends.
rockmyfkngworld It was just a fuck!
longagogodric *staring him down*
rockmyfkngworld .......what?
longagogodric Rebound sex is never a good idea.
rockmyfkngworld It wasn't rebound sex. It was 'this will make me feel better sex'. And it did. I felt myself.
longagogodric So you feel better now?
rockmyfkngworld *shrug* I guess. Just numb.
longagogodric Numb is not better.
rockmyfkngworld It's not agony either.
longagogodric For now.
rockmyfkngworld That's all I need.
longagogodric Temporary solutions fall short.
rockmyfkngworld *runs hand over his face and then his hair* What would you rather me do?
longagogodric *scoffs a little* That hardly matters, does it?
rockmyfkngworld I asked you for a reason.
longagogodric You won't listen. No one ever does, they hear advice and then do whatever they like regardless, so I might as well save my time.
rockmyfkngworld I'm not everyone else.
longagogodric You're not as unique as you'd like to think.
rockmyfkngworld Not as. But still unique. I don't ask people for advice. I ask person. I ask you.
longagogodric *trying not to look pleased, clears his throat* You still won't listen, but fine. You should get yourself stable. You should focus on making yourself well enough to handle yourself before you let another person into your life. Sex complicates everything.
rockmyfkngworld *nods slowly* That was my belief for over a hundred years.
longagogodric You were right.
rockmyfkngworld I know I was.
longagogodric And yet...
rockmyfkngworld *casts eyes downwards* I enjoy it. I get control from it as well as pleasure. And Syn... he loves me. I don't want to use anybody. James, he was my first. I don't know why I chose him, or let it be him. I guess I just need to... stop. I feel too young.
longagogodric He... *disappointed* Oh, William...
rockmyfkngworld *glances at him* What now.
longagogodric You slept with someone who has feelings for you?
rockmyfkngworld Yeah. Not the first time.
longagogodric *small sigh*
rockmyfkngworld Oh you know, judge all you want. He knows the score, I explained it to him. He - I needed to feel myself. I didn't need to feel like some discarded rag.
longagogodric You were an ass, Will. An inconsiderate ass.
rockmyfkngworld This is new?
longagogodric I had hoped perhaps.... *stands up* Nevermind. Your room is as you left it, you can stay as long as you like.
rockmyfkngworld *looks upset then glances away* Please don't do that.
longagogodric Don't do what? Offer you space? I thought that was why you were here.
rockmyfkngworld Don't give up on me.
longagogodric *staring him down* Then give me something to hope for.
rockmyfkngworld Like....
longagogodric Like that perhaps there is a decent man in you somewhere.
rockmyfkngworld *frown* I love Syn too. I didn't just fuck him because he was an easy lay. I don't want to use him. I don't want to.... this has NOTHING to do with.... just sit down....
longagogodric *doesn't sit* You are using him.
rockmyfkngworld *his turn to put head in his hands*
longagogodric Regardless of whether or not you care for him, you are in no position to be doing anything with anyone. You need time to heal, and to stand on your own, and involving yourself with him, even casually, will hurt you both in the long run.
rockmyfkngworld *wipes at his eyes then sits up, giving a long sniff* Ok.
longagogodric *sterness faltering a little* If he is a good friend, keep him. But refrain from physical affection. If you do care about him at all, don't make him into a rebound.
rockmyfkngworld So I just need to become my old self.
longagogodric You need to become... something inbetween.
rockmyfkngworld I don't do halves.
longagogodric Then I recommend going to the beginner's math course and learning fractions.
rockmyfkngworld *shoots him a glare* Even for you that was pretty lame.
longagogodric I never claimed to be funny.
rockmyfkngworld Good job too. *huffs then takes a deep breath* Can you please sit down? It's hard to.... talk when I feel like you could run away at any second
longagogodric Very well. *sits* Satisfied?
rockmyfkngworld *nods*..... I don't feel like talking about feelings much. Or admitting anything. But - like, and don't rub this in my face.... I really feel like I don't want to disappoint you.
longagogodric *looks at Will, a strange expression on his face*
rockmyfkngworld *meets his gaze*
longagogodric *sighs* You're not disappointing me.
rockmyfkngworld Good. I don't want to. Ok? So .... you officially.... fuck I am so going to regret this.... *prepares himself* You have permission to slap me if I'm being a dick. You have permission to interfere. You... do NOT have permission to talk to Syn about us, because I'll deal with him but everything else.... not that I'm saying you HAVE to or that I WANT you to. Just so you know.
longagogodric So... to clarify... you want my help.
rockmyfkngworld *narrows his eyes a moment then softens* Yes.
longagogodric *holds out his hand to shake*
rockmyfkngworld *pauses then shakes his hand, forming a small smile*
rockmyfkngworld is available longagogodric Good. Now that we have that settled... *nods toward the kitchen* Blake made dinner and you get to wash the dishes.
rockmyfkngworld *settles back* Not doin' that yet. I like hearing of your Pop.... I figure we have what, thirty or so years between us? Still from the Victorian Era.
longagogodric *puzzled and annoyed* Why do you want to hear about my father?
rockmyfkngworld Not particularly your father.... just your life. Reminisce...
longagogodric Why?
rockmyfkngworld ......fuck, man ok. Forget I said anything.
longagogodric *leans forward, clasping his hands and resting his arms on his knees* I'm not used to people asking about me. It makes me suspicious.
rockmyfkngworld I don't want anything from you apart from conversation. And help, of course, just... we're both from the same time and the same country. I just hoped we could like - talk.
longagogodric *brings his hands up to his mouth, looking Will over, contemplating* Where are you from, anyway?
rockmyfkngworld London.
longagogodric Hm. *pause* Brighton.
rockmyfkngworld I went there once on holiday. It was a nice place.
longagogodric It is. It's very... nice. Or was, anyway, I've no idea what it's like now.
rockmyfkngworld From what I hear full of gays. *smirk* You'd feel right at home.
longagogodric *setting him a Look*
rockmyfkngworld *sniggers* Oh come on.
longagogodric *Look*
rockmyfkngworld *laughs even more* Those your bedroom eyes? *shakes head* I remember going on the beach and stubbing my toe. My father said that it was because I'd had an impure thought.
longagogodric *still not looking entirely pleased* Im' sure I was told something equally asinine by my mother. Perhaps not as often as you were, but... We thanked God for good fortune and blamed sexual impulse for bad.
rockmyfkngworld *shrug* Dunno how I could have had an impure thought at 5. You know? Maybe it was that I wanted an ice cream. They punished me for anything.
longagogodric Well you know, ice cream is absolutely obscene.
rockmyfkngworld I know. Must be why I love it so much.
longagogodric I would believe that
rockmyfkngworld *proud smirk*
longagogodric Not necessarily something to gloat about...
rockmyfkngworld Loving ice cream?
longagogodric You know what I mean.
rockmyfkngworld ...no I don't, really.
longagogodric You seem to take pride in being risque. Sometimes I wonder if it is to your own detriment.
rockmyfkngworld *shrug* I like being called disgusting, and risque. That's a good word... risque....
longagogodric But why?
rockmyfkngworld *sets him with a curious look* Why not?
longagogodric *gives a small, passive shrug* To each his own, I suppose.
rockmyfkngworld It's fun to see stuffy people's mouths drop, to make people feel challenged... it's good to get a reaction.
longagogodric *stays quiet, giving a small shrug*
rockmyfkngworld I guess it's still rebellion against... them.
longagogodric It also makes it hard for anyone to take you seriously.
rockmyfkngworld I don't dick around all the time.
longagogodric *gives him a look*
rockmyfkngworld Thank you very much.
longagogodric Do you know what I hear about you?
rockmyfkngworld No, but I know you're gonna tell me.
longagogodric *shrugs* No.
rockmyfkngworld ........then why fucking mention anything? Go on tell me
longagogodric I asked if you wanted to know, you said no, so... *waves a hand airily*
rockmyfkngworld Now I'm retracting it.
longagogodric Well I'm not allowing you to.
rockmyfkngworld *frown*
longagogodric *perfectly calm face, looking innocent, grabbing the remote to turn on the television*
rockmyfkngworld *sighs*...... so why was Blake here?
longagogodric *flipping through channels* I don't know. I think he wanted to make dinner for Miranda.
rockmyfkngworld How is the Macintyre Version Two?
longagogodric She's doing well, I assume.
rockmyfkngworld is available rockmyfkngworld Cool. And grabby mcgrab?
longagogodric *forrows his brow* I'm sorry?
rockmyfkngworld Your healer friend
longagogodric He has a name.
rockmyfkngworld Grabby. He grabbed my ass.
longagogodric He did?
rockmyfkngworld Yes.
longagogodric *small growl* For goodness sake...
rockmyfkngworld *shrugs with a laugh* It's ok he can't help himself. You jealous?
longagogodric I'm annoyed and slightly disappointed.
rockmyfkngworld Seems you're always disappointed.
longagogodric I suppose I expect too much of people in hoping for some decency. *settles back on the cushions*
rockmyfkngworld Oh come on. People make mistakes, they flirt, they're not always locked in their chastity belts. You're certainly no saint.
longagogodric Groping someone is not a "mistake", it is a conscious effort.
rockmyfkngworld I never said it wasn't intentional. It wasn't a full on goose.
longagogodric *huff*
rockmyfkngworld *snickers* You're too sweet.
longagogodric *glare*
rockmyfkngworld You're not gonna change my mind. You are. You're like... everybody's father figure and big brother.
longagogodric *shortly* So I've heard.
rockmyfkngworld You wanna be something more?
longagogodric Not usually.
rockmyfkngworld *sigh* I'm kinda glad that I swapped sponsors.
longagogodric Mm, no one else wanted you.
rockmyfkngworld Blake was good and all, but he's twenty years younger than me.
longagogodric He doesn't have what it takes to handle you.
rockmyfkngworld *eyebrow raise*
longagogodric *watching tv*
rockmyfkngworld What's that meant to mean?
longagogodric *innocently* Hm? Oh, nothing.
rockmyfkngworld *shuffles closer towards him*
longagogodric *gives a glance, but doesn't move. yet.*
rockmyfkngworld *pauses, watching tv* Can I tell you something?
longagogodric I don't see why you should stop now.
rockmyfkngworld *sighs a little* Forget it.
longagogodric Tell me.
rockmyfkngworld No, no, no, you said no.
longagogodric I didn't say no. I said you've told me plenty so far, there's no need to stop now. So go ahead.
rockmyfkngworld I just wanted to tell you thank you.
longagogodric *quiet a moment, looking ahead* You're welcome.
rockmyfkngworld I'd be on the streets or in a den if you weren't her.e
longagogodric I'm glad I am here, then.
rockmyfkngworld I don't wanna use you.
longagogodric Don't worry about it, William,
rockmyfkngworld I'll repay you.
longagogodric You really don't have to
rockmyfkngworld Yes I do.
longagogodric Really, you don't.
rockmyfkngworld Where I come from, I do.
longagogodric *looking at him plainly* Friendship doesn't work on the barter system.
rockmyfkngworld *glances*.... I'm your friend?
longagogodric *gives a withering, weary look, but says softly* Yes.
rockmyfkngworld *smiles* Don't have to say it like it's a chore.
longagogodric Then stop making it one. *small smile*
rockmyfkngworld Oh ouch! You're such a bitch.
longagogodric Hardly.
rockmyfkngworld You so are, you just say it in a British accent with no expression so people don't recognise it.
longagogodric Actually, British accents are often more "bitchy", as you say.
rockmyfkngworld *cackles a little* I just love hearing you say bitch. Go on - Fuck dem bitchez!
longagogodric *rolls his eyes, resumes watching the program*
rockmyfkngworld I'm what - thirty years your junior. Where has your spark gone? You're sitting on your sofa a young vampire with a gorgeous body, good looks, a wise but boring head..... why aren't you fucking people?
longagogodric *simply* Because I don't need to.
rockmyfkngworld Nobody needs to but it's fun..... *goes quiet a moment*
longagogodric *also quiet, then softly* Because I've already been through that stage in life, and I don't need it again.
rockmyfkngworld Bad experiences.
longagogodric *teeniest, tiniest smirk* Not at all.
rockmyfkngworld *smirking* You sly dog.
longagogodric Hush.
rockmyfkngworld No way. You were a dirty vamp.
longagogodric I was young.
rockmyfkngworld You were a dirty vamp.
longagogodric *sighing* Yes.
rockmyfkngworld Good boy.
longagogodric It was a hundred years ago.
rockmyfkngworld Still....
longagogodric Still nothing. It is ancient history and that man does not exist anymore. End of talk.
rockmyfkngworld Yes, master.... *pause* Bet you had a few women say that to you.
longagogodric *jaw setting* No more, William.
rockmyfkngworld *tucks legs beneath him and then sprawls out, comfortable. watches tv for a few minutes* Do you wanna talk about anything?
longagogodric Such as?
rockmyfkngworld Anything you want.... If I talk about me I'll get upset. Or I'll get a hardon. So...
longagogodric *making a face* Please keep your crudeness to a minimum. If Wesley cannot talk about his... masculine issues... neither can you.
rockmyfkngworld Masculine issues, fuck you make it sound like an erection needs to be put in a plaster cast until it heals.
longagogodric May we please change topic?
rockmyfkngworld Fine. Pick one.
longagogodric *thinking a moment* I don't know. I'm terrible with spontaneous conversation. I haven't needed to make small talk in a century.
rockmyfkngworld Well what was happening today? You have a good meal? You fuck Blake yet? Did Wesley break down over the chicken because of long prong, what...
longagogodric *barely listening, though shooting him a look at Blake's name* Excuse me?
rockmyfkngworld He's back right? What's up with that
longagogodric *quickly* I don't know. He's back. That's it.
rockmyfkngworld *studies him, smiles then settles back down without a word*
longagogodric *not even facing him* Don't give me that look.
rockmyfkngworld Dunno what you mean
longagogodric Yes you do, now stop it.
rockmyfkngworld Can't stop what i'm not doing
longagogodric *sighing* Fine.
rockmyfkngworld *stares at the tv for a few moments then seems to quieten*
longagogodric *is lost in his own head*
rockmyfkngworld *deliberately puts hand on his face to conceal his eyes from ric's view, trying to ignore the soppy programme on tv*
longagogodric *seeing movement, glances over, watching him a moment. then changes the channel to something asinine but comedic*
rockmyfkngworld *subtly wiping* I need a drink. You want anything?
longagogodric *setting the remote down, sits upright and pulls Will into a hug*
rockmyfkngworld *stalls a moment, then wraps his arms around him*
longagogodric *softly* This, too, will pass.
rockmyfkngworld *sniffling, clings to him a little more*
longagogodric *sits with him quietly, just sitting there, holding onto him*
rockmyfkngworld *cries softly* I really loves him.
longagogodric I know. You always will, a little. But it gets easier.
rockmyfkngworld *peels away slightly but doesn't remove himself from ric's arms, wiping hastily at his eyes* What was that from? The.... pass thing
longagogodric *soft laugh* My mother.
rockmyfkngworld I thought it was Gandalf.
longagogodric Might have been as well.
rockmyfkngworld *small chuckle then looks upset again* I can't believe he threw me away. Like a rag. That's not... respect. He doesn't give a shit.....
longagogodric *sternly* William.
rockmyfkngworld He doesn't.
longagogodric Don't make me repeat myself.
rockmyfkngworld What?
longagogodric *seriously, though obviously supressing a smile* Fuck those bitches.
rockmyfkngworld *slow grin* Despite it meaning my face will look shit tomorrow...I'm glad I made you say it again.
longagogodric *blushing a little* Glad I could be of assistance.
rockmyfkngworld *presses a small kiss on the bridge of his nose* Thank you.
rockmyfkngworld *heads to the kitchen* I'll get two glasses.
longagogodric Sounds good.
rockmyfkngworld Amber or brown?
longagogodric Whatever you grab.
rockmyfkngworld You can't drink my groin.... well.... *comes back in with whiskey*
longagogodric *groaning* WIlliam, please be more tolerable...
rockmyfkngworld *settles next to him, handing him a glass*
longagogodric *accepts it* Thank you.
rockmyfkngworld Y'welcome. Figured you needed it
longagogodric Mm. *tosses back*
rockmyfkngworld I'll go to bed after this.
longagogodric *swallowing, swirling the small bit left in the glass, looking down into it* I asked out Blake.
rockmyfkngworld Good.
rockmyfkngworld *sips a little of his drink* Where did you ask him?
longagogodric Dunno.
rockmyfkngworld So how do you feel about it?
longagogodric Dunno. *sips*
rockmyfkngworld I dunno about you but I'm really glad we had this conversation
longagogodric I acted stupidly and I don't think I should go through with it.
rockmyfkngworld Of course you don't.
longagogodric Oh be quiet, you have no idea the circumstance surrounding.
rockmyfkngworld No, I don't. But I remember how happy he was, and how happy you were...
longagogodric *scoffs*
rockmyfkngworld So why did you ask him out again?
longagogodric I don't... because. I don't know. It was an impulsive decision and they never do me any favors.
rockmyfkngworld Sometimes impulsive are the only things that keep you alive.
longagogodric Not when you live in a delicate balance
rockmyfkngworld Delicate can be draining
longagogodric But it's safe.
rockmyfkngworld You asked him out for a reason.
longagogodric To keep him away from... someone.
rockmyfkngworld Really? You are THAT shit?
longagogodric No! It's not... it wasn't that it was someone, it was the particular someone.
rockmyfkngworld That's still a shitty thing to do! I assume he said yes.
longagogodric It wasn't! *sigh* He was invited out by Garret Foss. Possibly the worst person for Blake.
rockmyfkngworld And so the best possible way to protect him would be to ask him out on a date that you're now having second thoughts about....
longagogodric .....So it seems.
rockmyfkngworld *sighs*
longagogodric I'm not proud of myself, okay? I told you it was stupid.
rockmyfkngworld No your reasoning for it is stupid. If you back out of the date, he'll still go out with Garret. If you don't take him on another date, he'll still go out with Garret...
longagogodric I gave him a well thought out list of reasons that that... walking mattress... is no good for him.
rockmyfkngworld *loud laugh*
longagogodric *frown*
rockmyfkngworld Walking mattress... I like that.
longagogodric Oh. Well... it seems well suited for him.
rockmyfkngworld You got really jealous.
longagogodric I got somewhat jealous.
rockmyfkngworld *smirk*
longagogodric Okay, we're done discussing this.
rockmyfkngworld Ok, ok..... *quiet* You should take him out. Go with your impulse.
longagogodric I said we were done.
rockmyfkngworld I know....
longagogodric I'll... maybe. I think I will have to.
rockmyfkngworld You never know, Ric.
longagogodric I don't like not knowing. *crosses his arms*
rockmyfkngworld Then you don't like life.
longagogodric *gives him a look*
rockmyfkngworld You don't.
longagogodric There are moments I could do without, but overall I rather enjoy living.
rockmyfkngworld You don't know what's going to happen in life you just deal with it and hope it doesnt kill you.
longagogodric I don't like surprises.
rockmyfkngworld Liking Blake was a surprise right?
longagogodric *pause, then shortly* Yes.
rockmyfkngworld *pets his arm softly*
longagogodric And like most surprises, it ended horribly.
rockmyfkngworld No, that's just love
longagogodric *sighing, reluctantly* Yes, I suppose you're right.
rockmyfkngworld I hope you enjoy yourself. You should really... make the most of it.
longagogodric I'm going to cancel.
rockmyfkngworld Of course you are.
longagogodric I didn't ask your opinion.
rockmyfkngworld I agreed with you.
longagogodric I recognize that tone all too well and I don't care for it.
rockmyfkngworld I don't care for bullshit either, but I'm tolerating it from you. You asked him out, so fucking go out with him or disappoint the man you love. Again. And this time he'll remember it.
longagogodric *darkly* This is some bold advice from someone whose marriage just failed.
rockmyfkngworld Except that wasn't my fault. I did my best, I fought for it, I was willing for him to go flying between us, spend time with Fisher, but I wasn't enough.
longagogodric Sometimes people are just not meant for one another.
rockmyfkngworld I know you don't like hurting people.
longagogodric No, I don't. *softer* Which is why nothing is ever going to become of this.
rockmyfkngworld Oh for fuck's sake. And Jesus sat beside me, saying I shall never let love be close to me, I shall forsake all its wonders.....
longagogodric *gets up* Good night, William.
rockmyfkngworld You deserve to be happy, don't cut yourself off.
longagogodric *looking at him with a stern gaze* You do not get to come into my home, make assumptions and tell me what I'm doing wrong in my life when you know nothing about the circumstance. *glare, then turning to the stairs* Good night, William.
rockmyfkngworld *stands and walks up to him, hugging him from behind*
longagogodric *pauses, then gently removes his arms, then keeps going*
rockmyfkngworld *watches him go* I meant what I said before. Thank you. I just wanted to try and return the help.
longagogodric Goodnight, Will. *goes upstairs*
rockmyfkngworld ...night. *wanders to the living room and settles down*