Godric Witt (shy_vamp) wrote in tiberiusswann, @ 2011-06-01 17:47:00 |
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Entry tags: | godric, ric, will, william |
Sunday November 30th 2008
Who: Godric and Will
What: Tha angel comes back to the BGH
Where: The BGH
When: Sunday evening
Rating: R for language
Note: Aimscene
rockmyfkngworld
*knocks on the front door of the BGH*
longagogodric
*answers the door, running his fingers through his hair, surprised by who is on the other side* Oh... William.
rockmyfkngworld
*quietly* I said I'd... be over....
longagogodric
*pauses a moment, then remembers* So you did. Come in, please.
rockmyfkngworld
*hands in pockets as he strolls in, shoulders hunched as he immediately sits on the sofa*
longagogodric
*sits beside him, exhaling slowly* Alright, tell me.
rockmyfkngworld
*glances at him* It's over. Last night. We ended it.
longagogodric
*nodding, slowly* I see.
rockmyfkngworld
I'm.... needing a place to stay. If you will have me back here.
longagogodric
I think we can accomodate.
rockmyfkngworld
*nods* Ok.
longagogodric
*gives a moments pause, then gently* Despite how... adamant I was against your marriage, I am sorry that it is ending.
rockmyfkngworld
Yeah. Me too. *small sigh and a tremble then really quiet* i came here because you're - the only person I could think of to really help me. I don't.... know what to do now. James has Fisher to go back to, but.... where do I go back to?
longagogodric
*mulling it over a moment* What were you doing before James?
rockmyfkngworld
Figuring out what the hell I was doing.
longagogodric
Then that's what you need to do again.
rockmyfkngworld
*laughs a little* No.
longagogodric
What was it that brought you here, to Danvers I mean?
rockmyfkngworld
*considering* Haddon had died. My abilities had faded. I was grieving but I had no idea how to let it out... so I came here. Met Fisher. He introduced me to the concept of friends and emotion, and he encouaged it...
longagogodric
*interrupting* Right well... disregarding that disaster... You had come here to figure out where to go. And now you're in the exact same position. So... do what you did then. Only... perhaps more carefully, this time.
rockmyfkngworld
*silent for two seconds* I did nothing then. All I did was stumble and find fucking Fisher and end up shooting my life even more down the shit pipe. I hadn't figured out fuck. I hadn't.... there wasn't anything
longagogodric
If there wasn't anything, then you wouldn't have had anything to lose, now would you. There is always something.
rockmyfkngworld
I don't... I don't understandt hat.
longagogodric
If you didn't have anything, then you wouldn't feel so empty from losing it.
rockmyfkngworld
I had James. I had Fisher. And then Fisher fucked off, and James fucked off. But before either of them, I had nothing. I've already lost them... and now I'm back to nothing.
longagogodric
You need to look at it in more base components, Will. Before, you were making friends, you were opening yourself up to people. You were letting yourself thrive. You need to begin that again.
rockmyfkngworld
Didn't feel like I was thriving.
longagogodric
Well... you just lost a husband and a friend, I'd have to say you were doing well.
rockmyfkngworld
*breathes down his nose* I'm sure he considered me a friend. I'm sure they're both really cut up over this.
longagogodric
It doesn't matter what they think. They are not important, they are garbage. They are inconsequential. Sweep them into the dustbin and be done with them.
rockmyfkngworld
*closes his eyes, shaking a little* I don't think they have a bin inside a bin.
longagogodric
The point is, what you do from now on should not even consider them. They didn't consider you, did they?
rockmyfkngworld
*sniffles then tries to disguise it* No.
longagogodric
Right. So.... *smiling a little* Fuck those bitches.
rockmyfkngworld
*fixes eyes on him then laughs* Really?
longagogodric
*a little embarassed* You heard me.
rockmyfkngworld
*chuckles then calms down a little* I've lost more than them, though. Devon, and Rocky... my whole family's been taken.
longagogodric
You haven't lost them. Rocky is her own woman and can make her own decisions. And Devon.... well technically, as a stepfather you do have certain visitation rights, especially since you both getting married was one of the driving forces in him staying with you.
rockmyfkngworld
*rubs eyes in an effort to wipe them* I'm already sick of this shit and it's barely been 24 hours.
longagogodric
It only gets worse from here.
rockmyfkngworld
*groans* Thakns
longagogodric
It will. And you need to set yourself ready for it now, before the storm hits.
rockmyfkngworld
*puts on old english accent* Battle down the hatches, right.
longagogodric
Oh lord, my father used to say that...
rockmyfkngworld
He did?
longagogodric
Mm. "Battle down the hatches, Ric my son, the storm is coming in." He liked to think of himself as a captain of his industry. *small, nostalgic smile* He was... unusual.
rockmyfkngworld
*smiles a little* He sounds like he was a tough guy.
longagogodric
He was, in a way. I don't remember much about him but... *pauses, looking at Will* Well. Irrelevant. We're talking about you, remember?
rockmyfkngworld
Not irrelevant. But fine, carry on. My favourite subject.
longagogodric
Yes, we all know too well.
rockmyfkngworld
*smirk* Well hey, you could have kept talking....
longagogodric
I could have. So what is your plan from here on?
rockmyfkngworld
*shrug* Don't do what I did today. Not for a while.
longagogodric
*expression falling* Oh no, what did you do?
rockmyfkngworld
*cheeky smile*
longagogodric
William!
rockmyfkngworld
Oooh you so cute when you're concerned... tell me more about your Dad.
longagogodric
Tell me what you did today.
rockmyfkngworld
Tell me about your Dad and I will.
longagogodric
His name was Richard. What did you do today?
rockmyfkngworld
I went out. What else was he like?
longagogodric
*frowning* Where did you go?
rockmyfkngworld
I went to IHOP and a thrift store. What was he like?
longagogodric
With who?
rockmyfkngworld
I bet he was tall. With black hair.
longagogodric
*sighs* He was.... I don't really know, to be honest. My mother says that I look exactly like him.
rockmyfkngworld
*studies him a second* Syn.
longagogodric
*soft groan* You're dating? A professor?
rockmyfkngworld
*blank* I'm not dating....
longagogodric
Good, because it is ill advised.
rockmyfkngworld
I just fucked him in the dressing room.
longagogodric
*stares a moment, then puts his face in his hands* For goodness sake, Will...
rockmyfkngworld
What? It was good. We're friends. Have been for years and years.... it was good. Very good. Until the clerk came and interrupted us....
longagogodric
*says nothing*
rockmyfkngworld
She kinda wanted to call the cops. I persuaded her not to. *shrug*
longagogodric
*still nothing, face in hands*
rockmyfkngworld
....what?
longagogodric
*same position* Oh, nothing. I am just curious as all.
*is
rockmyfkngworld
I'm sure I can screw you if you want.
longagogodric
*ignoring him* I am curious as to why it is that I always end up attracting people who make the absolute worst decisions for themselves.
rockmyfkngworld is available
longagogodric
*ignoring him* I am curious as to why it is that I always end up attracting people who make the absolute worst decisions for themselves.
rockmyfkngworld
*leans back on the sofa* You include yourself in that?
longagogodric
*turns his head slightly to look at him* Only for my choice in friends.
rockmyfkngworld
It was just a fuck!
longagogodric
*staring him down*
rockmyfkngworld
.......what?
longagogodric
Rebound sex is never a good idea.
rockmyfkngworld
It wasn't rebound sex. It was 'this will make me feel better sex'. And it did. I felt myself.
longagogodric
So you feel better now?
rockmyfkngworld
*shrug* I guess. Just numb.
longagogodric
Numb is not better.
rockmyfkngworld
It's not agony either.
longagogodric
For now.
rockmyfkngworld
That's all I need.
longagogodric
Temporary solutions fall short.
rockmyfkngworld
*runs hand over his face and then his hair* What would you rather me do?
longagogodric
*scoffs a little* That hardly matters, does it?
rockmyfkngworld
I asked you for a reason.
longagogodric
You won't listen. No one ever does, they hear advice and then do whatever they like regardless, so I might as well save my time.
rockmyfkngworld
I'm not everyone else.
longagogodric
You're not as unique as you'd like to think.
rockmyfkngworld
Not as. But still unique. I don't ask people for advice. I ask person. I ask you.
longagogodric
*trying not to look pleased, clears his throat* You still won't listen, but fine. You should get yourself stable. You should focus on making yourself well enough to handle yourself before you let another person into your life. Sex complicates everything.
rockmyfkngworld
*nods slowly* That was my belief for over a hundred years.
longagogodric
You were right.
rockmyfkngworld
I know I was.
longagogodric
And yet...
rockmyfkngworld
*casts eyes downwards* I enjoy it. I get control from it as well as pleasure. And Syn... he loves me. I don't want to use anybody. James, he was my first. I don't know why I chose him, or let it be him. I guess I just need to... stop. I feel too young.
longagogodric
He... *disappointed* Oh, William...
rockmyfkngworld
*glances at him* What now.
longagogodric
You slept with someone who has feelings for you?
rockmyfkngworld
Yeah. Not the first time.
longagogodric
*small sigh*
rockmyfkngworld
Oh you know, judge all you want. He knows the score, I explained it to him. He - I needed to feel myself. I didn't need to feel like some discarded rag.
longagogodric
You were an ass, Will. An inconsiderate ass.
rockmyfkngworld
This is new?
longagogodric
I had hoped perhaps.... *stands up* Nevermind. Your room is as you left it, you can stay as long as you like.
rockmyfkngworld
*looks upset then glances away* Please don't do that.
longagogodric
Don't do what? Offer you space? I thought that was why you were here.
rockmyfkngworld
Don't give up on me.
longagogodric
*staring him down* Then give me something to hope for.
rockmyfkngworld
Like....
longagogodric
Like that perhaps there is a decent man in you somewhere.
rockmyfkngworld
*frown* I love Syn too. I didn't just fuck him because he was an easy lay. I don't want to use him. I don't want to.... this has NOTHING to do with.... just sit down....
longagogodric
*doesn't sit* You are using him.
rockmyfkngworld
*his turn to put head in his hands*
longagogodric
Regardless of whether or not you care for him, you are in no position to be doing anything with anyone. You need time to heal, and to stand on your own, and involving yourself with him, even casually, will hurt you both in the long run.
rockmyfkngworld
*wipes at his eyes then sits up, giving a long sniff* Ok.
longagogodric
*sterness faltering a little* If he is a good friend, keep him. But refrain from physical affection. If you do care about him at all, don't make him into a rebound.
rockmyfkngworld
So I just need to become my old self.
longagogodric
You need to become... something inbetween.
rockmyfkngworld
I don't do halves.
longagogodric
Then I recommend going to the beginner's math course and learning fractions.
rockmyfkngworld
*shoots him a glare* Even for you that was pretty lame.
longagogodric
I never claimed to be funny.
rockmyfkngworld
Good job too. *huffs then takes a deep breath* Can you please sit down? It's hard to.... talk when I feel like you could run away at any second
longagogodric
Very well. *sits* Satisfied?
rockmyfkngworld
*nods*..... I don't feel like talking about feelings much. Or admitting anything. But - like, and don't rub this in my face.... I really feel like I don't want to disappoint you.
longagogodric
*looks at Will, a strange expression on his face*
rockmyfkngworld
*meets his gaze*
longagogodric
*sighs* You're not disappointing me.
rockmyfkngworld
Good. I don't want to. Ok? So .... you officially.... fuck I am so going to regret this.... *prepares himself* You have permission to slap me if I'm being a dick. You have permission to interfere. You... do NOT have permission to talk to Syn about us, because I'll deal with him but everything else.... not that I'm saying you HAVE to or that I WANT you to. Just so you know.
longagogodric
So... to clarify... you want my help.
rockmyfkngworld
*narrows his eyes a moment then softens* Yes.
longagogodric
*holds out his hand to shake*
rockmyfkngworld
*pauses then shakes his hand, forming a small smile*
rockmyfkngworld is available
longagogodric
Good. Now that we have that settled... *nods toward the kitchen* Blake made dinner and you get to wash the dishes.
rockmyfkngworld
*settles back* Not doin' that yet. I like hearing of your Pop.... I figure we have what, thirty or so years between us? Still from the Victorian Era.
longagogodric
*puzzled and annoyed* Why do you want to hear about my father?
rockmyfkngworld
Not particularly your father.... just your life. Reminisce...
longagogodric
Why?
rockmyfkngworld
......fuck, man ok. Forget I said anything.
longagogodric
*leans forward, clasping his hands and resting his arms on his knees* I'm not used to people asking about me. It makes me suspicious.
rockmyfkngworld
I don't want anything from you apart from conversation. And help, of course, just... we're both from the same time and the same country. I just hoped we could like - talk.
longagogodric
*brings his hands up to his mouth, looking Will over, contemplating* Where are you from, anyway?
rockmyfkngworld
London.
longagogodric
Hm. *pause* Brighton.
rockmyfkngworld
I went there once on holiday. It was a nice place.
longagogodric
It is. It's very... nice. Or was, anyway, I've no idea what it's like now.
rockmyfkngworld
From what I hear full of gays. *smirk* You'd feel right at home.
longagogodric
*setting him a Look*
rockmyfkngworld
*sniggers* Oh come on.
longagogodric
*Look*
rockmyfkngworld
*laughs even more* Those your bedroom eyes? *shakes head* I remember going on the beach and stubbing my toe. My father said that it was because I'd had an impure thought.
longagogodric
*still not looking entirely pleased* Im' sure I was told something equally asinine by my mother. Perhaps not as often as you were, but... We thanked God for good fortune and blamed sexual impulse for bad.
rockmyfkngworld
*shrug* Dunno how I could have had an impure thought at 5. You know? Maybe it was that I wanted an ice cream. They punished me for anything.
longagogodric
Well you know, ice cream is absolutely obscene.
rockmyfkngworld
I know. Must be why I love it so much.
longagogodric
I would believe that
rockmyfkngworld
*proud smirk*
longagogodric
Not necessarily something to gloat about...
rockmyfkngworld
Loving ice cream?
longagogodric
You know what I mean.
rockmyfkngworld
...no I don't, really.
longagogodric
You seem to take pride in being risque. Sometimes I wonder if it is to your own detriment.
rockmyfkngworld
*shrug* I like being called disgusting, and risque. That's a good word... risque....
longagogodric
But why?
rockmyfkngworld
*sets him with a curious look* Why not?
longagogodric
*gives a small, passive shrug* To each his own, I suppose.
rockmyfkngworld
It's fun to see stuffy people's mouths drop, to make people feel challenged... it's good to get a reaction.
longagogodric
*stays quiet, giving a small shrug*
rockmyfkngworld
I guess it's still rebellion against... them.
longagogodric
It also makes it hard for anyone to take you seriously.
rockmyfkngworld
I don't dick around all the time.
longagogodric
*gives him a look*
rockmyfkngworld
Thank you very much.
longagogodric
Do you know what I hear about you?
rockmyfkngworld
No, but I know you're gonna tell me.
longagogodric
*shrugs* No.
rockmyfkngworld
........then why fucking mention anything? Go on tell me
longagogodric
I asked if you wanted to know, you said no, so... *waves a hand airily*
rockmyfkngworld
Now I'm retracting it.
longagogodric
Well I'm not allowing you to.
rockmyfkngworld
*frown*
longagogodric
*perfectly calm face, looking innocent, grabbing the remote to turn on the television*
rockmyfkngworld
*sighs*...... so why was Blake here?
longagogodric
*flipping through channels* I don't know. I think he wanted to make dinner for Miranda.
rockmyfkngworld
How is the Macintyre Version Two?
longagogodric
She's doing well, I assume.
rockmyfkngworld is available
rockmyfkngworld
Cool. And grabby mcgrab?
longagogodric
*forrows his brow* I'm sorry?
rockmyfkngworld
Your healer friend
longagogodric
He has a name.
rockmyfkngworld
Grabby. He grabbed my ass.
longagogodric
He did?
rockmyfkngworld
Yes.
longagogodric
*small growl* For goodness sake...
rockmyfkngworld
*shrugs with a laugh* It's ok he can't help himself. You jealous?
longagogodric
I'm annoyed and slightly disappointed.
rockmyfkngworld
Seems you're always disappointed.
longagogodric
I suppose I expect too much of people in hoping for some decency. *settles back on the cushions*
rockmyfkngworld
Oh come on. People make mistakes, they flirt, they're not always locked in their chastity belts. You're certainly no saint.
longagogodric
Groping someone is not a "mistake", it is a conscious effort.
rockmyfkngworld
I never said it wasn't intentional. It wasn't a full on goose.
longagogodric
*huff*
rockmyfkngworld
*snickers* You're too sweet.
longagogodric
*glare*
rockmyfkngworld
You're not gonna change my mind. You are. You're like... everybody's father figure and big brother.
longagogodric
*shortly* So I've heard.
rockmyfkngworld
You wanna be something more?
longagogodric
Not usually.
rockmyfkngworld
*sigh* I'm kinda glad that I swapped sponsors.
longagogodric
Mm, no one else wanted you.
rockmyfkngworld
Blake was good and all, but he's twenty years younger than me.
longagogodric
He doesn't have what it takes to handle you.
rockmyfkngworld
*eyebrow raise*
longagogodric
*watching tv*
rockmyfkngworld
What's that meant to mean?
longagogodric
*innocently* Hm? Oh, nothing.
rockmyfkngworld
*shuffles closer towards him*
longagogodric
*gives a glance, but doesn't move. yet.*
rockmyfkngworld
*pauses, watching tv* Can I tell you something?
longagogodric
I don't see why you should stop now.
rockmyfkngworld
*sighs a little* Forget it.
longagogodric
Tell me.
rockmyfkngworld
No, no, no, you said no.
longagogodric
I didn't say no. I said you've told me plenty so far, there's no need to stop now. So go ahead.
rockmyfkngworld
I just wanted to tell you thank you.
longagogodric
*quiet a moment, looking ahead* You're welcome.
rockmyfkngworld
I'd be on the streets or in a den if you weren't her.e
longagogodric
I'm glad I am here, then.
rockmyfkngworld
I don't wanna use you.
longagogodric
Don't worry about it, William,
rockmyfkngworld
I'll repay you.
longagogodric
You really don't have to
rockmyfkngworld
Yes I do.
longagogodric
Really, you don't.
rockmyfkngworld
Where I come from, I do.
longagogodric
*looking at him plainly* Friendship doesn't work on the barter system.
rockmyfkngworld
*glances*.... I'm your friend?
longagogodric
*gives a withering, weary look, but says softly* Yes.
rockmyfkngworld
*smiles* Don't have to say it like it's a chore.
longagogodric
Then stop making it one. *small smile*
rockmyfkngworld
Oh ouch! You're such a bitch.
longagogodric
Hardly.
rockmyfkngworld
You so are, you just say it in a British accent with no expression so people don't recognise it.
longagogodric
Actually, British accents are often more "bitchy", as you say.
rockmyfkngworld
*cackles a little* I just love hearing you say bitch. Go on - Fuck dem bitchez!
longagogodric
*rolls his eyes, resumes watching the program*
rockmyfkngworld
I'm what - thirty years your junior. Where has your spark gone? You're sitting on your sofa a young vampire with a gorgeous body, good looks, a wise but boring head..... why aren't you fucking people?
longagogodric
*simply* Because I don't need to.
rockmyfkngworld
Nobody needs to but it's fun..... *goes quiet a moment*
longagogodric
*also quiet, then softly* Because I've already been through that stage in life, and I don't need it again.
rockmyfkngworld
Bad experiences.
longagogodric
*teeniest, tiniest smirk* Not at all.
rockmyfkngworld
*smirking* You sly dog.
longagogodric
Hush.
rockmyfkngworld
No way. You were a dirty vamp.
longagogodric
I was young.
rockmyfkngworld
You were a dirty vamp.
longagogodric
*sighing* Yes.
rockmyfkngworld
Good boy.
longagogodric
It was a hundred years ago.
rockmyfkngworld
Still....
longagogodric
Still nothing. It is ancient history and that man does not exist anymore. End of talk.
rockmyfkngworld
Yes, master.... *pause* Bet you had a few women say that to you.
longagogodric
*jaw setting* No more, William.
rockmyfkngworld
*tucks legs beneath him and then sprawls out, comfortable. watches tv for a few minutes* Do you wanna talk about anything?
longagogodric
Such as?
rockmyfkngworld
Anything you want.... If I talk about me I'll get upset. Or I'll get a hardon. So...
longagogodric
*making a face* Please keep your crudeness to a minimum. If Wesley cannot talk about his... masculine issues... neither can you.
rockmyfkngworld
Masculine issues, fuck you make it sound like an erection needs to be put in a plaster cast until it heals.
longagogodric
May we please change topic?
rockmyfkngworld
Fine. Pick one.
longagogodric
*thinking a moment* I don't know. I'm terrible with spontaneous conversation. I haven't needed to make small talk in a century.
rockmyfkngworld
Well what was happening today? You have a good meal? You fuck Blake yet? Did Wesley break down over the chicken because of long prong, what...
longagogodric
*barely listening, though shooting him a look at Blake's name* Excuse me?
rockmyfkngworld
He's back right? What's up with that
longagogodric
*quickly* I don't know. He's back. That's it.
rockmyfkngworld
*studies him, smiles then settles back down without a word*
longagogodric
*not even facing him* Don't give me that look.
rockmyfkngworld
Dunno what you mean
longagogodric
Yes you do, now stop it.
rockmyfkngworld
Can't stop what i'm not doing
longagogodric
*sighing* Fine.
rockmyfkngworld
*stares at the tv for a few moments then seems to quieten*
longagogodric
*is lost in his own head*
rockmyfkngworld
*deliberately puts hand on his face to conceal his eyes from ric's view, trying to ignore the soppy programme on tv*
longagogodric
*seeing movement, glances over, watching him a moment. then changes the channel to something asinine but comedic*
rockmyfkngworld
*subtly wiping* I need a drink. You want anything?
longagogodric
*setting the remote down, sits upright and pulls Will into a hug*
rockmyfkngworld
*stalls a moment, then wraps his arms around him*
longagogodric
*softly* This, too, will pass.
rockmyfkngworld
*sniffling, clings to him a little more*
longagogodric
*sits with him quietly, just sitting there, holding onto him*
rockmyfkngworld
*cries softly* I really loves him.
longagogodric
I know. You always will, a little. But it gets easier.
rockmyfkngworld
*peels away slightly but doesn't remove himself from ric's arms, wiping hastily at his eyes* What was that from? The.... pass thing
longagogodric
*soft laugh* My mother.
rockmyfkngworld
I thought it was Gandalf.
longagogodric
Might have been as well.
rockmyfkngworld
*small chuckle then looks upset again* I can't believe he threw me away. Like a rag. That's not... respect. He doesn't give a shit.....
longagogodric
*sternly* William.
rockmyfkngworld
He doesn't.
longagogodric
Don't make me repeat myself.
rockmyfkngworld
What?
longagogodric
*seriously, though obviously supressing a smile* Fuck those bitches.
rockmyfkngworld
*slow grin* Despite it meaning my face will look shit tomorrow...I'm glad I made you say it again.
longagogodric
*blushing a little* Glad I could be of assistance.
rockmyfkngworld
*presses a small kiss on the bridge of his nose* Thank you.
longagogodric
*pulls away slowly, looking unsettled* You're... welcome.
rockmyfkngworld
*strokes his cheek* Not every day you get kissed by an angel. Make the most of it. Seriously, though, drink. *stands*
longagogodric
*clearly baffled* Ahm... right.... well.
rockmyfkngworld
......what's wrong
longagogodric
Nothing. *shoos him* Go.
rockmyfkngworld
*heads to the kitchen* I'll get two glasses.
longagogodric
Sounds good.
rockmyfkngworld
Amber or brown?
longagogodric
Whatever you grab.
rockmyfkngworld
You can't drink my groin.... well.... *comes back in with whiskey*
longagogodric
*groaning* WIlliam, please be more tolerable...
rockmyfkngworld
*settles next to him, handing him a glass*
longagogodric
*accepts it* Thank you.
rockmyfkngworld
Y'welcome. Figured you needed it
longagogodric
Mm. *tosses back*
rockmyfkngworld
I'll go to bed after this.
longagogodric
*swallowing, swirling the small bit left in the glass, looking down into it* I asked out Blake.
rockmyfkngworld
Good.
rockmyfkngworld
*sips a little of his drink* Where did you ask him?
longagogodric
Dunno.
rockmyfkngworld
So how do you feel about it?
longagogodric
Dunno. *sips*
rockmyfkngworld
I dunno about you but I'm really glad we had this conversation
longagogodric
I acted stupidly and I don't think I should go through with it.
rockmyfkngworld
Of course you don't.
longagogodric
Oh be quiet, you have no idea the circumstance surrounding.
rockmyfkngworld
No, I don't. But I remember how happy he was, and how happy you were...
longagogodric
*scoffs*
rockmyfkngworld
So why did you ask him out again?
longagogodric
I don't... because. I don't know. It was an impulsive decision and they never do me any favors.
rockmyfkngworld
Sometimes impulsive are the only things that keep you alive.
longagogodric
Not when you live in a delicate balance
rockmyfkngworld
Delicate can be draining
longagogodric
But it's safe.
rockmyfkngworld
You asked him out for a reason.
longagogodric
To keep him away from... someone.
rockmyfkngworld
Really? You are THAT shit?
longagogodric
No! It's not... it wasn't that it was someone, it was the particular someone.
rockmyfkngworld
That's still a shitty thing to do! I assume he said yes.
longagogodric
It wasn't! *sigh* He was invited out by Garret Foss. Possibly the worst person for Blake.
rockmyfkngworld
And so the best possible way to protect him would be to ask him out on a date that you're now having second thoughts about....
longagogodric
.....So it seems.
rockmyfkngworld
*sighs*
longagogodric
I'm not proud of myself, okay? I told you it was stupid.
rockmyfkngworld
No your reasoning for it is stupid. If you back out of the date, he'll still go out with Garret. If you don't take him on another date, he'll still go out with Garret...
longagogodric
I gave him a well thought out list of reasons that that... walking mattress... is no good for him.
rockmyfkngworld
*loud laugh*
longagogodric
*frown*
rockmyfkngworld
Walking mattress... I like that.
longagogodric
Oh. Well... it seems well suited for him.
rockmyfkngworld
You got really jealous.
longagogodric
I got somewhat jealous.
rockmyfkngworld
*smirk*
longagogodric
Okay, we're done discussing this.
rockmyfkngworld
Ok, ok..... *quiet* You should take him out. Go with your impulse.
longagogodric
I said we were done.
rockmyfkngworld
I know....
longagogodric
I'll... maybe. I think I will have to.
rockmyfkngworld
You never know, Ric.
longagogodric
I don't like not knowing. *crosses his arms*
rockmyfkngworld
Then you don't like life.
longagogodric
*gives him a look*
rockmyfkngworld
You don't.
longagogodric
There are moments I could do without, but overall I rather enjoy living.
rockmyfkngworld
You don't know what's going to happen in life you just deal with it and hope it doesnt kill you.
longagogodric
I don't like surprises.
rockmyfkngworld
Liking Blake was a surprise right?
longagogodric
*pause, then shortly* Yes.
rockmyfkngworld
*pets his arm softly*
longagogodric
And like most surprises, it ended horribly.
rockmyfkngworld
No, that's just love
longagogodric
*sighing, reluctantly* Yes, I suppose you're right.
rockmyfkngworld
I hope you enjoy yourself. You should really... make the most of it.
longagogodric
I'm going to cancel.
rockmyfkngworld
Of course you are.
longagogodric
I didn't ask your opinion.
rockmyfkngworld
I agreed with you.
longagogodric
I recognize that tone all too well and I don't care for it.
rockmyfkngworld
I don't care for bullshit either, but I'm tolerating it from you. You asked him out, so fucking go out with him or disappoint the man you love. Again. And this time he'll remember it.
longagogodric
*darkly* This is some bold advice from someone whose marriage just failed.
rockmyfkngworld
Except that wasn't my fault. I did my best, I fought for it, I was willing for him to go flying between us, spend time with Fisher, but I wasn't enough.
longagogodric
Sometimes people are just not meant for one another.
rockmyfkngworld
I know you don't like hurting people.
longagogodric
No, I don't. *softer* Which is why nothing is ever going to become of this.
rockmyfkngworld
Oh for fuck's sake. And Jesus sat beside me, saying I shall never let love be close to me, I shall forsake all its wonders.....
longagogodric
*gets up* Good night, William.
rockmyfkngworld
You deserve to be happy, don't cut yourself off.
longagogodric
*looking at him with a stern gaze* You do not get to come into my home, make assumptions and tell me what I'm doing wrong in my life when you know nothing about the circumstance. *glare, then turning to the stairs* Good night, William.
rockmyfkngworld
*stands and walks up to him, hugging him from behind*
longagogodric
*pauses, then gently removes his arms, then keeps going*
rockmyfkngworld
*watches him go* I meant what I said before. Thank you. I just wanted to try and return the help.
longagogodric
Goodnight, Will. *goes upstairs*
rockmyfkngworld
...night. *wanders to the living room and settles down*