You ever wake up and realize a big mistake? And maybe that big mistake leaves a hole in you so big you wish you'd never met that person before- even if they are the most beautiful thing you've seen.
Sometimes...I wish you'd never come into my life. I think the nightmares suit me better than the ache. The nightmares woke me up in cold sweats and the shakes but this? This is killing me slowly.
I'd do anything to make this go away. I wish I could just be a friend who is happy to be near you but right now? It hurts and it makes me want to hate you.
At least my family is back. That is the one bright light at the end of this fucking dark tunnel.