Who Jean and Kay What Aim chat About His feelings for Kay and visa versa, Romeo, and the ending hit the shooting of Chess. Yes I said shooting of Chess. More to follow
(10:29:07 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: kay (10:29:34 PM) showmejazzhands: mm? (10:29:52 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: I think I'm taking this Romeo thing way too seriously (10:30:26 PM) showmejazzhands: What's going through that twisted head of yours now? (10:31:00 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: he didn't even realize Christmas was given. He can't be all like... totally about me like I thought he was. Christmas is like... always a given for boyfriends/girlfriends/family. That's just how it works (10:31:45 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: I think he just felt stupid because it made him all center of attention with Chess's pranky dumbassness (10:32:17 PM) showmejazzhands: So you actually fell for the bedbugs huh? (10:32:38 PM) showmejazzhands: Does he even know you're his boyfriend? I thought you didn't want that (10:32:52 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: yeah. well. I mean, he thought so (10:33:06 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: then it was all like.. a thing (10:33:09 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: cuz he wasn't (10:33:23 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: but then he almost died (10:33:26 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: and morphine (10:33:28 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: and yeah (10:34:23 PM) showmejazzhands: you've lost me. You just said that Christmas is a given for boyfriends/girlfriends/family and now you're telling me he's none of those things soooo... (10:34:56 PM) showmejazzhands: where in all of that was he supposed to realize its a thing? (10:35:24 PM) showmejazzhands: unless you told him while he was half dead on morphine and that shit doesnt count. believe me. (10:35:28 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: well something about me saying I wanted to spend forever with him, I thought that sorta meant something (10:35:38 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: yeah. maybe he doesn't even remember (10:35:44 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: and I can pretend it didn't happen (10:35:59 PM) showmejazzhands: can I ask you something? (10:36:15 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: but idk. I just thought... he'd know... or something... but yeah ask (10:37:33 PM) showmejazzhands: why were you all upset that he didn't realize christmas was a thing if you want to pretend that you saying all that to him didn't happen to begin with? Chess literally ahd to copy and paste his proposal and my agreement after our morphine chat before I remembered (10:38:02 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: um. I don't know (10:38:13 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: Fuck kay I don't know (10:38:16 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: ok (10:38:25 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: just forget it (10:40:16 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: Anyway Dad's bringing a big meal to your place (10:40:23 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: and lot of other stuff too (10:41:12 PM) showmejazzhands: what sort of other stuff? (10:41:37 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: I don't know. decorations (10:41:40 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: or something (10:41:40 PM) showmejazzhands: Jean if you want to date the kid just ask him for real. You already know he's going to say yes. (10:41:47 PM) showmejazzhands: decroations? (10:41:52 PM) showmejazzhands: ugh (10:41:57 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: yeah. he's so gunna (10:43:04 PM) showmejazzhands: i really fucking hate christmas (10:43:09 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: and I don't know about the whole dating thing. I thought I had this thing.. like we were past that whole asking each other thing and it was given. apparently I'm wrong. sooooooooo... fuck it. I can just go back to normal and he can not have his life fucked up by the chaos I'll bring into it (10:43:48 PM) showmejazzhands: riiight he can just have my fucked up bad luck and death. Good to know. (10:44:37 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: what (10:44:44 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: how's he gonna have that (10:44:57 PM) showmejazzhands: news flash, bat boy, he's already got it. (10:45:29 PM) showmejazzhands: or are you forgetting who practically killed him on thanksgiving because he was with you and you're in with me. (10:45:56 PM) showmejazzhands: you don't want to fuck his life up, you technically already did that the moment you brought him over to my house (10:46:08 PM) showmejazzhands: congrats (10:47:42 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: so what do you suggest? (10:50:31 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: can I ask you something else? (10:52:33 PM) showmejazzhands: i get the feeling you're going to anyway so shoot (10:55:38 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: remember what I last told you? (10:55:50 PM) showmejazzhands: yeah (10:59:00 PM) showmejazzhands: Why? (10:59:16 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: I just sorta want to know something. will you be brutally honest and I mean the honest without lying to be a dick. heh. Um, I know it doesn't matter now... and maybe it's wrong I'm even asking, but since when do I do what's right anyway... fuck it. Chess knows anyway. PRobably why he gets so upset about you and me too. So it's probably more my fault he was upset and went to your mom's place than yours... I'm sorry. But... not that it matters. but if you never met chess... would we have had a chance? (11:04:55 PM) showmejazzhands: I would have been an ass to you and tried to push you away the same as I did Chess but not for the same reason. (11:05:13 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: what reason? (11:06:29 PM) showmejazzhands: I pushed Chess as hard as I could because the people I care about, the only people I've ever loved die because of me. You can't die but that's precisely why I would have pushed you away too. (11:07:20 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: yeah, but... (11:07:33 PM) showmejazzhands: but what? (11:08:47 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: idk. not everyone you loved that has died had ever been a lover... so, I mean... fuck. I'm shutting up now. never mind (11:09:10 PM) showmejazzhands: tell me (11:12:01 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: I just was trying to clarify. you said not the same reason... but because youeveryone you loved dies. so you push away. but you only ever loved chess. so you're talking about different love. I just wondered... where I would have fallen... in the family side, or the actual side and I guess you can't really answer that. idk (11:14:12 PM) showmejazzhands: I wouldn't have pushed you away for that reason.I would have pushed you away because you're immortal Jean and one day no doubt sooner rather than later with my luck I'm going to die. I wouldn't have seen the point in it when all it would result in is me causing you pain. (11:14:40 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: ah (11:16:37 PM) showmejazzhands: and hell even if I lived to be 100 and you'd kept coming back like Chess did you'd still be you and I'd be a decrepit old man, completely useless and losing my memories what sort of life would that be for you (11:17:10 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: I didn't ask you to explain the sucky parts. (11:17:27 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: I asked if I might have fallen under a certain category of feeling (11:17:34 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: it doesn't matter anyway (11:17:56 PM) showmejazzhands: You always have fallen under certain categories of feeling (11:18:36 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: so I'm not a delusional paranoid making up things in my head? (11:18:52 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: heh (11:19:05 PM) showmejazzhands: no but I started off hating you to no end. (11:20:06 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: yeah. I should go now. Chess gets upset as it is. I can't know this. I shouldn't have asked. (11:21:01 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: it hurts my stomach (11:21:06 PM) showmejazzhands: I don't see the problem. like I said. I'd have never agreed to go out with you anyway because I wouldn't see the point. (11:21:29 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: I do. I see it (11:21:47 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: I think Chess sees it too. (11:22:02 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: he must have known. (11:22:11 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: he knows you better than anyone (11:23:21 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: your problem is you see what would and wouldn't be because of choices. and I think me and Chess both see in what feelings are there whether action is taken or not (11:23:29 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: it affects us (11:24:41 PM) showmejazzhands: Chess knows how I feel about you Jean, I told him the day he asked and that day was long before he ever asked me to marry him. Doesn't mean I'm one to act on what I feel so in the end it doesn't mean shit. Because Chess is here. He's in my life. I married him and though I hate that sometimes because of everything I'm doing and have done to fuck up his life doesn't mean I'd change it for the world. (11:25:06 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: I know all that (11:25:26 PM) showmejazzhands: well you're the one that asked for the truth so don't get fucking pissy with me (11:26:09 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: nevermind kay. I just gotta go. I'll talk to you later (11:26:39 PM) JudgeGatesofSyn: I wish I never told you (11:31:24 PM) showmejazzhands: why? doesn't change shit for me, Jean, I already knew in some way I'd fucked you up. (11:31:31 PM) showmejazzhands: but yeah (11:31:32 PM) showmejazzhands: whatever (11:31:33 PM) showmejazzhands: bye (12/11/2012 2:16:35 AM) showmejazzhands: I really hope your Witch is fucking worth it Jean. (2:16:45 AM) showmejazzhands: Really I do. (2:17:33 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: what are you talking about now (2:19:20 AM) showmejazzhands: I just hope he was worth saving. (2:22:13 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: I dont get why you're saying this (2:22:26 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: everyone is worth saving (2:22:41 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: it's sorta what I do (2:22:53 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: daily even (2:23:34 AM) showmejazzhands: yeah well some people come at a higher price to pay than others (2:23:43 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: not really. (2:24:08 AM) showmejazzhands: no? (2:24:38 AM) showmejazzhands: could have fooled me (2:24:52 AM) showmejazzhands: if he was dead right now I'd still have a husband (2:25:29 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: yeah. I mean... just yesterday I ended up fighting a three headed infernal dog for a 21 year old murderer (2:25:44 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: I mean, he's just as important to me as anyone else (2:25:46 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: wait (2:25:47 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: what (2:26:21 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: one where's chess? (2:26:23 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: two (2:26:39 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: do you get I fight to save people every day I live (2:26:49 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: against dangerous ass shit (2:27:00 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: it's just what I do (2:27:04 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: where's chess (2:27:10 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: he's not answering me (2:27:32 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: fuck. what's gone on between you two this time (2:29:07 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: I'm on him (2:29:14 AM) showmejazzhands: leave him (2:29:17 AM) showmejazzhands: let him go (2:29:30 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: no (2:29:32 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: no way (2:29:53 AM) showmejazzhands: fine but make sure you fucking tell him that I didn't send you (2:30:46 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: fine whatever. You're a dumb shit kay (2:31:05 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: all he ever wants to know is you're why things happen (2:31:06 AM) showmejazzhands: yeah I know. That's the last time I fucking try and save anyone (2:32:11 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: there he is. I'm about to go up to him, but just so you know... this is really ugly (2:32:22 AM) showmejazzhands: ya think? (2:34:12 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: *time passes* Hey Kay. Now that I have a broken nose. Can I ask you something (2:34:25 AM) showmejazzhands: shoot (2:35:42 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: you really not going after him? (2:36:09 AM) showmejazzhands: no (2:36:18 AM) showmejazzhands: not this time (2:37:36 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: ah. well... ok then. I gotta back there then. that's his big thing. He says you lied, you said forever and you'd leave him. and he says you'd run to save me and he's not important...but it was the last thing that got to me... (2:37:38 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: he said (2:38:19 AM) showmejazzhands: i told him if he signed he's soul over to Caim like he was asking the damn demon to do then I'd leave him. (2:38:30 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: he's not done that (2:38:35 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: I can sense those things (2:40:21 AM) showmejazzhands: I went to save your damn witch because you care about him. Apparently I'm a total scumbag and that means I chose you over Chess so hey, congratu-fucking-lations. (2:41:08 AM) showmejazzhands: I tried to do the right thing for once in my goddamn like and look what its done, the one time i haven't ignored what I've seen and done and your fucking dad suggested and look what happens (2:41:43 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: my dad? (2:41:58 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: what'd he suggest? He'd never suggest a mortal fight behind me (2:42:32 AM) showmejazzhands: ages back he told me that I was damned to hell something alone the lines of hell giving me the power but it's how I used it that mattered (2:43:26 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: he wouldn't suggest a mortal fight behind me though. (2:43:49 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: he wouldn't ever suggest a human put himself in the middle of a divine power fight (2:44:04 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: that's against everything we stand for (2:44:16 AM) showmejazzhands: whatever (2:44:19 AM) showmejazzhands: doesnt matter now (2:44:58 AM) showmejazzhands: i hope you and chess enjoy your christmas. tell your dad to just take him to the fucking farm if that's what he wants. I don't plan on being around (2:47:30 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: anyway. last thing he said to was.... this.... my life is meaningless him. Im done with mine. I've never been someone worth chasing after. I should have known my husband wouldn't think so either. I've been fooling myself all along. - Um Kay? tell me you know about all his ex girlfriends right? how they controlled him? never mind .. I don't have time for this explaining stuff. I gotta go help him before something bad happens. (2:48:56 AM) showmejazzhands: all I've ever done is try and give him everything he's ever asked for, try and keep him safe (2:49:12 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: and you're giving up now (2:49:18 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: good job (2:49:31 AM) showmejazzhands: he said goodbye to me, Jean not the other way around (2:49:43 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: yeah. pride matters at a time like this (2:49:55 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: he's hurting (2:50:13 AM) showmejazzhands: right because Chess is the only one in the world that can hurt (2:50:49 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: no. but he's the one that's at risk right now. get over yourself. (2:50:56 AM) showmejazzhands: fuck you (2:51:04 AM) showmejazzhands: fuck you both (2:55:54 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: I wanna die (2:56:01 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: I hate being immortal (2:56:16 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: you and your stupid glocks (2:56:56 AM) showmejazzhands: A glock to the head really isn't the best way (2:57:02 AM) showmejazzhands: leaves behind too much mess (2:57:12 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: I see that (2:57:29 AM) showmejazzhands: you tried? (2:57:35 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: no. (2:57:39 AM) showmejazzhands: he shot you? (2:57:42 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: no (2:57:50 AM) showmejazzhands: then how do you see that? (2:57:57 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: I can't say it (2:58:05 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: just get to this address (2:58:29 AM) JudgeGatesofSyn: [inserts hospital address]