Andrew Kirin || Unicorn (unicorn_is_dead) wrote in thegrand_ic, @ 2012-06-02 23:22:00 |
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Entry tags: | andrew kirin, caim/adrian marius, taj habib bahar |
Who Adrian, Taj, Andy
What Andy makes a terminal decision
Where Adrian's place then outside
When Saturday late afternoon
Warning Mentions of suicide, bad language, tears before bedtime
Despite the way he'd slipped into an unforgiving depression so deep that he hadn't moved from Adrian's bed under his own volition for nearly every reason, although he hadn't eaten in days, although all he wanted to ever do was sleep, Andy had still been trying.
Taj's leaving had left a hole torn into the meat of his heart but his guilt had infected it until it had been eaten away and left a hollow in it's place. Andy's eyes were always red now from the tears that still came unbidden and mostly unnoticed, and it felt like the thing that had been keeping him upright since his last suicide attempt, some weird emotional bone, had been broken. Andy had felt it bending under pressure over all those days spent curled up in Adrian's bed, but now it had finally snapped, seemingly taking Andy's depression with it.
He got up on his own for the first time since he'd come through the door to go shower and change into clean clothes, all of them Adrian's as he had none af his own that he hadn't worn out by now. He needed something new. He brushed his teeth and combed his hair and there was something bright about him, a strange kind of spark that hadn't been there befare. He found his phone with a flourish, turned it on and texted the owner of the home himself.
::Adrian - I've decided it's time to go - coming up to say goodbye? - Andy::
He pressed 'send' then sat at the edge of the bed, kicking his feet back and forth a little, humming and waiting.