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Peter Petrelli | Heroes (savedthechrldr) wrote in thedoorway,
@ 2013-03-03 00:35:00

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!network post, claire bennet, lindir, lucy pevensie (books), peter petrelli, sarafinwe turukano

I think I'm being selfish.

The more I think of it, the more I think I am. I mean, I'm here, in this place, where it's not a crime to have powers, where nobody's going to shun you or imprison you, or kill you, or throw you in camps, where I can be who I want to be and help as much as I can without having to hide myself. It's great, right? I've found an amazing girl and I've got a job where I can save lives and...

I'm still being selfish.

Because even though horrible stuff happens back home, who knows what would happen if I wasn't there? Am I changing the future by staying here? I know they say that you go back to the moment you left, but what if it changes me in some little way, and everything turns out different, and everything is just ruined? I mean, I should be trying to get back. I'm going complacent. I'm going against everything I said I'd do, you know? Save the world. And what am I doing? I'm looking after myself.

So yeah, I'm being selfish. Or I'm hiding. I'm not sure which.

[Filtered to Claire]

Can we talk?

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	PETER/CLAIRE durable 2013-03-04 08:01 pm UTC (link)
	I didn't even know him, but he was like me. Or maybe it's just that I could end up like him. In our world, he's gone. And Nathan will die, and eventually you'll die and my parents will die and everyone will die, except me and him. ~~Does that make it my responsibility to~~ I don't want that. Peter, I really, really don't want that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: PETER/CLAIRE savedthechrldr 2013-03-04 08:08 pm UTC (link)
	I won't die, Claire. Not if I stay here. It's only when my dad takes my powers - I don't want that for you either. And if there was any way I could change it, I would. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	PETER/CLAIRE durable 2013-03-04 08:13 pm UTC (link)
	All the people here think they're free from all the stuff in their world, but it happens anyway. It doesn't change the show. We've seen our show, we know what happens. I'm going to kill him. ~~I just don't know if I can do it alone.~~ I will. I'll find a way to remember. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	PETER/CLAIRE savedthechrldr 2013-03-05 12:00 am UTC (link)
	It's still nice to think that if we stay here we don't have to face it. That it can happen...somewhere else. That if I stay here, Nathan lives and I keep my powers... Kill who? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	PETER/CLAIRE durable 2013-03-05 12:20 am UTC (link)
	~~But it isn't~~ Yeah. It's nice. Sylar. Maybe we can't change what's on the show, but the show doesn't tell us everything. It doesn't show us the future, or what happens after Samuel. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	PETER/CLAIRE savedthechrldr 2013-03-05 12:25 am UTC (link)
	But wait - you can't - I mean, at the end of the show... He gets better. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	PETER/CLAIRE durable 2013-03-05 12:27 am UTC (link)
	Are you kidding me? He gets better? How many times has he gotten better, Peter? Do you seriously think it'll last? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	PETER/CLAIRE savedthechrldr 2013-03-05 12:32 am UTC (link)
	Yeah, I think he means it this time, Claire. I mean - I know. I'll never forgive him for the things he's done to you...to me...to Nathan...but - but I think he deserves a chance. To make amends. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	PETER/CLAIRE durable 2013-03-05 04:34 am UTC (link)
	~~He killed Nathan. He slit his throat and he~~ Sorry. I didn't realize you guys were BFFs now. You still don't want to go back. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: PETER/CLAIRE savedthechrldr 2013-03-05 04:44 am UTC (link)
	Don't do that, Claire. No, I don't. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	PETER/CLAIRE durable 2013-03-05 05:00 am UTC (link)
	People deserve a chance, and he had one. He had a lot of chances. He kills people. He hurts people. That's what he does. And just because he decided to start calling himself a hero again, that doesn't make him one. That doesn't bring anyone back to life. It makes more sense now, if you think our world is really "saved". (Reply to this) (Parent)

	PETER/CLAIRE durable 2013-03-05 05:14 am UTC (link)
	I told you it was selfish of me to want you to want to go home. I didn't say that to make you feel obligated. If you don't want to go back, don't worry about it. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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