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Peter Petrelli | Heroes (savedthechrldr) wrote in thedoorway,
@ 2013-03-03 00:35:00

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!network post, claire bennet, lindir, lucy pevensie (books), peter petrelli, sarafinwe turukano

I think I'm being selfish.

The more I think of it, the more I think I am. I mean, I'm here, in this place, where it's not a crime to have powers, where nobody's going to shun you or imprison you, or kill you, or throw you in camps, where I can be who I want to be and help as much as I can without having to hide myself. It's great, right? I've found an amazing girl and I've got a job where I can save lives and...

I'm still being selfish.

Because even though horrible stuff happens back home, who knows what would happen if I wasn't there? Am I changing the future by staying here? I know they say that you go back to the moment you left, but what if it changes me in some little way, and everything turns out different, and everything is just ruined? I mean, I should be trying to get back. I'm going complacent. I'm going against everything I said I'd do, you know? Save the world. And what am I doing? I'm looking after myself.

So yeah, I'm being selfish. Or I'm hiding. I'm not sure which.

[Filtered to Claire]

Can we talk?

	ohroonil 2013-03-03 06:57 am UTC (link)
	I don't think it could change you. I mean, I guess I was here and I left and came back again and I never had any memory of any of it. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	savedthechrldr 2013-03-03 07:05 am UTC (link)
	Maybe. But what if it does? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ohroonil 2013-03-03 07:22 pm UTC (link)
	I don't know what to tell you, mate. I really don't think it will. It didn't change anything for me when I went back. Everything happened exactly the way it does in those books, still. No matter how you might change here, if/when you go back, you'll forget it all and be the same bloke you always were. (Reply to this) (Parent)