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Tweak says, "WE LIKE THA MOON!"

Peter Petrelli | Heroes (savedthechrldr) wrote in thedoorway,
@ 2013-03-03 00:35:00

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!network post, claire bennet, lindir, lucy pevensie (books), peter petrelli, sarafinwe turukano

I think I'm being selfish.

The more I think of it, the more I think I am. I mean, I'm here, in this place, where it's not a crime to have powers, where nobody's going to shun you or imprison you, or kill you, or throw you in camps, where I can be who I want to be and help as much as I can without having to hide myself. It's great, right? I've found an amazing girl and I've got a job where I can save lives and...

I'm still being selfish.

Because even though horrible stuff happens back home, who knows what would happen if I wasn't there? Am I changing the future by staying here? I know they say that you go back to the moment you left, but what if it changes me in some little way, and everything turns out different, and everything is just ruined? I mean, I should be trying to get back. I'm going complacent. I'm going against everything I said I'd do, you know? Save the world. And what am I doing? I'm looking after myself.

So yeah, I'm being selfish. Or I'm hiding. I'm not sure which.

[Filtered to Claire]

Can we talk?

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	savedthechrldr 2013-03-03 06:23 am UTC (link)
	Right, yeah. But I don't have to be so happy about it, you know? I could be trying to find a way home. Not trying to settle in here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	turukano 2013-03-03 06:24 am UTC (link)
	Do you not deserve peace? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	savedthechrldr 2013-03-03 06:30 am UTC (link)
	No. No, I don't. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	turukano 2013-03-03 06:31 am UTC (link)
	Why? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	savedthechrldr 2013-03-03 06:32 am UTC (link)
	I've...I've got a lot to make up for. A lot of promises to keep. My work isn't done, and I can't just abandon it. People need me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	turukano 2013-03-03 06:43 am UTC (link)
	I understand, but it seems futile to worry over it. Things will change and there is naught we are able to do about it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	savedthechrldr 2013-03-03 06:48 am UTC (link)
	Sure. But... Sometimes you're given something special, something extraordinary, and you're supposed to do something with that. You're not just supposed to sit on it. And it's bigger than you and more important than you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	turukano 2013-03-03 06:49 am UTC (link)
	Is not this moment the most extraordinary? How do you know you are not meant to be here, now, in this very moment? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	savedthechrldr 2013-03-03 06:50 am UTC (link)
	I just...I just know. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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