Leo Fitz speaks the Queens bloody English (sciencebiatch) wrote in thedoorway, @ 2015-01-28 16:58:00 |
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Entry tags: | !log, leo fitz |
Who: Leo Fitz
When: After THIS
Where: Room 108
What: Preparing to go back in the field for the first time since he was hurt
Rating: Low
Fitz had been preparing to go and help them build the containment for the titans. But, May had changed her mind. Changed the orders. Said they needed him. Which was good. He wanted to be able to help them again. But, he wasn't as good as he was before. His hands still didn't work perfectly, and speech was still hard. As he prepared to move, his mind ran over all of the scenarios that had a potential to go wrong. And, they worried him. What if he couldn't do what they needed him to do. If something happened to the plane, and he couldn't fix it? What if, him being broken like this caused him to make a mistake which let the team down. Or worse, got one of them killed. He didn't think he could live with himself if something like that happened. But, May had insisted. And Trip and Skye had faith in him. He just didn't know how he could have faith in himself. Faith that he wouldn't mess this up. As he started packing what he'd need for the mission, his mind drifted back to being in that pod. Watching the ocean pass by as they sank to the bottom. The feeling of helplessness he felt then. And then, the certainty that he would sacrifice himself for Jemma. To keep her alive he would do anything. Fitz paused in his packing, as his breathing became laboured and took some deep breaths before he started hyperventilating. He could do this. He hoped. As the last couple of items went in his bag, there was a knock at the door. Taking a deep breath, he composed himself and headed to open the door to Trip. Hoping against hope that this wouldn't end up being a mistake. |