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Tweak says, "No wai!"

laura kinney / x-23 (laurakinney) wrote in thedoorway,
@ 2013-09-03 21:28:00

Entry tags:

!network post, ben reilly / spider-man (616), humberto lopez / reptil (616), jean grey / phoenix (movie), jubilation lee (animated), ken mack / mettle, laura kinney / x-23 (616), logan / wolverine (616), matt murdock / daredevil (616)

Filter: Marvel-Verse

I am so sorry.

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	greymatter 2013-09-03 09:36 pm UTC (link)
	Oh, hon. None of what happened is your fault. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	laurakinney 2013-09-03 09:43 pm UTC (link)
	There was no trigger scent; this was me. I hurt the people I call my friends. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	greymatter 2013-09-03 09:55 pm UTC (link)
	Laura, the gas brought on a long list of awful symptoms including hallucinations, paranoia, and aggression. You weren't in control any more than any of the other victims. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	laurakinney 2013-09-03 11:10 pm UTC (link)
	My worst fear still came true. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	greymatter 2013-09-03 11:16 pm UTC (link)
	I know the feeling well. But it doesn't make it your fault. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	laurakinney 2013-09-04 12:05 am UTC (link)
	I am sorry. It's just hard to believe that right now. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	greymatter 2013-09-04 12:12 am UTC (link)
	It's okay. I understand. How are you feeling otherwise? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	laurakinney 2013-09-04 12:23 am UTC (link)
	I am physically healed. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	greymatter 2013-09-04 12:30 am UTC (link)
	~~I know, but~~ Of course. Don't let this eat away at you, hon. Awful things happen to good people all the time. All we can do is pick ourselves back up and make the best of everything good we have. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	laurakinney 2013-09-04 12:59 am UTC (link)
	~~I can't~~ You have a lot of faith in me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	greymatter 2013-09-04 01:02 am UTC (link)
	You've given me absolutely no reason not to, dear. Besides, I'd hazard a guess that Logan had that stab in the crotch coming to him. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	laurakinney 2013-09-04 01:18 am UTC (link)
	Thank you. I was trying to go for the femoral artery. That does not make it sound better. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	greymatter 2013-09-04 01:22 am UTC (link)
	~~Oh boy, and here I was aiming for a lighter mood~~ No, but he's gotten plenty of sympathy, even with his healing, so it's quite all right. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	laurakinney 2013-09-04 02:03 am UTC (link)
	He does tend to ask for extra. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Jean/Logan slicendice 2013-09-04 09:21 am UTC (link)
	I'd complain, but it's pointless. Thanks. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Jean/Logan greymatter 2013-09-04 10:16 am UTC (link)
	There's no need to thank me for making a joke at your expense. I was hoping some dark humor would ease her mind where logic was failing. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Voice Reply daredevilish 2013-09-03 09:41 pm UTC (link)
	No one blames you, Laura. We've all had our moments, trust me. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: Voice Reply laurakinney 2013-09-03 10:21 pm UTC (link)
	You have always known what I have been capable of. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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daredevilish
2013-09-03 10:28 pm UTC (link)

And you know what many of us are capable of, and just because sometimes things influence us negatively and pull us down into the darkest part of ourselves does not mean the good in us does not exist. You're not alone in having become a version of yourself that's done something terrible, and we all know it wasn't because you wanted to do those things, which makes all the difference.

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	laurakinney 2013-09-03 11:09 pm UTC (link)
	I have done terrible things all my life. This is how I was created, and there was never any other purpose for my existence. I am not even real. So where did I come off thinking that I could have a normal life? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	daredevilish 2013-09-03 11:12 pm UTC (link)
	Laura that's bull, your existence is what you make of it, forget what anyone has ever said about why you were created. The point is you are here and you have a lot of people who enjoy your existence so much that we'd always back you when things got tough. You're real to us. You're real to me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	laurakinney 2013-09-04 12:34 am UTC (link)
	I wish I could tell you that it was easy for me to let everything go when Steve Rogers released me. It was not. I ended up in New York, but with a job that left me used and tossed aside. Kimura did not stop following me. She reached me in Utopia and then reached me in X-Force. She will continue to come after me and will never fail to remind me of what I am. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	daredevilish 2013-09-04 12:37 am UTC (link)
	Then we'll just have to keep reminding of you who you can be and have been and are more often than not. And if Kimura ends up here then we'll take care of her. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	laurakinney 2013-09-04 02:27 am UTC (link)
	~~She can't be k~~ Thank you. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	theotherparker 2013-09-04 12:20 am UTC (link)
	Matt's got the right idea and said it ten times better than I probably could. Life's in the living of it. It doesn't matter how you can into this world, but that you're in it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	laurakinney 2013-09-04 12:51 am UTC (link)
	It is hard to believe that when for the first fifteen years of your life, you've been called a monster and an animal and it's all been synonymous with the word "clone". (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	theotherparker 2013-09-04 01:45 am UTC (link)
	Not to mention fraud, fake, impostor, science experiment, living lie, doppelganger. Meat puppet was always a fun one. It's hard to let words like that go, especially if you hear them too often, but they aren't who you are. They can only define you if you let them. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	laurakinney 2013-09-04 02:19 am UTC (link)
	I'm sorry. Nobody should be treated that way. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	theotherparker 2013-09-04 02:38 am UTC (link)
	You're right. Nobody should. That includes you. You gotta remember that. Because you're not an animal or a monster and anyone who insists on trying to call you either here is going to be in for a world of trouble. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	reptilsaur 2013-09-03 10:15 pm UTC (link)
	Laura, you have absolutely nothing to be sorry for. It wasn't your fault and no one could possibly blame you. No one died, you're safe and that's all that matters. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	laurakinney 2013-09-04 12:02 am UTC (link)
	But you could have. I could have killed any of you. It might still happen and I am a fool for thinking that my past will not catch up to me here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	reptilsaur 2013-09-04 12:06 am UTC (link)
	That's life for us. We all knew what we were getting into and that's a risk we're all willing to take. What happened is horrible, and you have every right to feel however you feel, but I hope that you know that this isn't your fault. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	laurakinney 2013-09-04 12:54 am UTC (link)
	I do not want to hurt you again. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	reptilsaur 2013-09-04 08:39 am UTC (link)
	Good enough for me. If it happens we'll deal with it, same as we always do. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	humansparkler 2013-09-03 10:16 pm UTC (link)
	Don't even worry about it, bb. With powers comes the time you are inevitably manipulated into fucking shit up. It happens. (Reply to this)

	mettles 2013-09-03 10:18 pm UTC (link)
	Echoing everyone else, but, this wasn't your fault girl. We all still love you, no matter what, okay? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	laurakinney 2013-09-03 11:05 pm UTC (link)
	Mettle. ~~You~~ You have every right to be upset. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

mettles
2013-09-03 11:14 pm UTC (link)

~~Everyone needs to stop telling me how to fe~~ No. I just want you to be okay. No one's mad at you. Not me, not even Jenny, and she's mad at everybody. We just want you to be ok and to not beat yourself up over this. It was out of your control, out of anyone's. Everyone's going to tell you that, but you'll have to see it for yourself, and if you need anything to help get you to that point, I'm here for you.

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	laurakinney 2013-09-04 12:15 am UTC (link)
	I am at a loss at what to do. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

mettles
2013-09-04 04:51 am UTC (link)

The only thing you can do, girl: keep on breathin'.

Life's not over until you can't do that anymore, and for you? Who cares who stands in your way? Who cares who uses you? Because there's always going to be someone around just to mess your game up but you're better than that. You always have been and always will be. You're Laura Kinney, you're X-23. And no matter who gets in your way, all of our lives are better because you were part of it, no matter the circumstance. Don't let this one time wipe you out. You just gotta get back up on your board and enjoy the ride until the next hard wave hits.

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	daisywillrocku 2013-09-03 10:44 pm UTC (link)
	I do not find you at fault, we're going to be alright, so that's all that matters. Don't you blame yourself. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	laurakinney 2013-09-04 12:10 am UTC (link)
	I always have. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	daisywillrocku 2013-09-04 06:49 am UTC (link)
	I think we all do, if we're being honest. But really, we'll all be fine. This time there was nothing you could do to prevent it. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	acceleration 2013-09-03 11:08 pm UTC (link)
	Laura, there's nothing for you to apologize for. It isn't your fault. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	laurakinney 2013-09-04 12:23 am UTC (link)
	You know it would be hard for me to believe that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	acceleration 2013-09-04 12:24 am UTC (link)
	I know, but I want you to believe it. I don't blame you for what happened. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	slicendice 2013-09-04 09:25 am UTC (link)
	Anybody gives you shit and I'm gonna have word with them. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	laurakinney 2013-09-04 10:42 am UTC (link)
	Thank you. (Reply to this) (Parent)