ben | sam
You take responsibility for yourself and for your actions, Sam. That's more than a great many people in society. I've never liked cases, not depending on mental defect, claiming that the person committed the act but it wasn't their fault. Taking responsibility is the only way to make progress.
I am truly glad for you. I am more critical of myself than most others are, and I suspect the same is true for you. It's not destroying you here, and so I will leave it to your experiences here to improve it.