I have been here for three weeks now and I still don't completely understand it all. Apparently I have been brought here from my time into the year 2013 on a planet called Earth.
I also don't truly exist for these people. It seems I am a fictional character. This makes no sense whatsoever. I'm as real as they are yet they seem to think they can stop me on the street and ask for a picture or ask me questions about things that I haven't lived yet. It's all quite confusing.
I've also learned that Luke is my brother. My twin brother. We were separated at birth to protect us from the Emperor and from our father. Who just happens to be Darth Vader. Try to wrap your head around that! Obi-Wan explained it to me and I understand that he didn't know who I was when he held me captive on the Death Star and that he didn't even know who Luke was until after the Death Star was destroyed. Still though it's hard to reconcile all that with the man that Obi-Wan talks about, the man who was his friend, his brother in a sense. At least he isn't here anymore and I'm a bit relieved about that. I'm not sure what I would say to him if I met him in his real body...before he became the monster that I remember.
There's also my daughter. Jaina. She also has a twin and their father is Han. Whom I marry in the future apparently. I want to get to know Jaina but I'm not sure where to start. Right now she's older than I am so thinking of her as my child feels strange. I'm sure it must feel equally strange to her. It was a little better when Han was here. Even if I can't begin to imagine ever wanting to marry him, at least he was familiar, I knew how to deal with him, what to expect. I know I have Luke but I'm still getting used to the fact that he is my twin. He learned about it shortly after he got here so he's had time to accept it. For me it's still a shock.
Now Han is gone and I'm left with a lot of confused feelings. I have no idea how I'm supposed to fit in the world but I have to try. That much I do understand.