Keith & Tahiri
The "mummy" costumes I saw here weren't that far off from smart desert wear.
You sound like you have a lot of bad luck in space.
The Jedi have a long history, and how things were taught over them probably varied. But the way I was taught, emotions aren't to be avoided altogether. But you don't let them rule you either. You have them. They're valid. Preferably don't let them get you killed or go on a murder spree or anything. Some of that comes from simply being aware of what you're feeling. If you don't know you're angry, you're more likely to fly off the handle over something small. It isn't all that easy, but if it were, I'd be a Jedi master instead of a knight.
And if it's okay with you, I can also... connect with you, to some extent. It's something I'm good at, and I do that a lot in meditation with my best friend. Being aware of each other in the Force.