Just [...] see how it goes? I don't know what other advice to give. If you feel that it's not what you want or if Gaby doesn't, then you have to be honest with each other about it. But it's hard to know if you don't try. I don't know. Eliot, Arielle, and I sort of fell into it. I'm not saying it was always easy, but I loved them both. Rupert loved all of us. He never thought anything of our relationship. Eliot and I were together all the way up until he died. I don't regret it.
It's [...] it is what it is. I leave myself open to the possibility of love. I just don't know where to look for it or where I might find it. I don't regret letting him go either. Even if it's like punching myself in the heart. I did it for him. That's more important than selfishly clinging to something that doesn't belong to me anymore.