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Tweak says, "fight the fairies!"

Eliot the Spectacular (highkingeliot) wrote in thedisplaced,
@ 2018-03-19 12:02:00

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alucard emery, annie cresta (au), eliot waugh, emmeline vance, johanna mason (au), john murphy, julia wicker, kylo ren / ben solo, link, padme amidala, scott mccall, selina kyle (gotham)

Are there any veterinarians on board?

KYLO REN

Good morning. Hypothetical question here. How do you feel about kittens?

JULIA WICKER

So...Tony Stark?

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Napoleon/Q

king_quentin
2018-03-20 03:33 pm UTC (link)

I’m afraid I’m not the most positive sometimes about myself. Something I need to work on.

I started something with someone and I wasn’t upfront about how I felt and they didn’t want that. The feelings part. I don’t think they knew what they wanted really. They were hung up on someone else and I thought I was until I realized I wasn’t. I thought I could stop feeling it because it was just a crush, but that’s not really how it worked out. They also basically felt that I was too young most of the time, which didn’t make sense to me when anyone would be in the same boat. Anyway. They broke it off because of that Michael guy putting it in their head that they were using me and I guess it got really stuck in there and I didn’t react well. Especially not to the part where they said we were both using each other once I explained my having a crush on them.

It all blew up because I told Eliot about it an Eliot is very protective. Especially with me. This was post drinking until I remembered basically nothing after a certain point. So being hungover an trying to navigate emotions is complicated and Alice was nice enough to come over with something to help with the hangover and make me sleep more. I asked Eliot and everyone to leave them alone, which didn’t happen, so then we weren’t even going to be friends, so Alice and I went out to kill spiders and I definitely almost died a few times.

We’re okay now. Sort of. We can talk. Not sure I’m able to talk to them about things like I used to, though. I tried once, but it didn’t work so well, so I’ll just keep it to surface level and hope for the best.

I’m not always good at making choices for myself in sexual or romantic situations. All of this was before the life that happened and didn’t was in my head except the sharing things part.

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Re: Napoleon/Q

outlawthief
2018-03-20 06:04 pm UTC (link)

There is a very large part of me that wants to go find this person that upset you so deeply and have a nice long talk with them about assumptions and misplaced blame. From what I can see, you became honest with them when you realized your feelings were something more.

But the more sensible part of me knows that you handled this situation the way you needed to, that you have a plan of action for the aftermath. But I want you to know that if you need to get something like this out, that if you want commentary on it or advice, I am here for you.

I realize we may have rushed into something undefined a little quickly after what happened with you in Middle Earth, but I don't wish to change any of it, so long as you don't. I like you, Quentin, and I like our friendship the way it is.

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Napoleon/Q

king_quentin
2018-03-20 06:24 pm UTC (link)

Not right away. [...] I don't want anyone doing the talking for me or to help me. Even if I understand that people want to do that. I just [...] I don't know. It was both of us. I can't pretend I didn't have a hand in it. I should have been honest. I just wanted. I probably should have thought things through a little more.

It didn't feel rushed. It was unexpected, I suppose, but I wouldn't say it felt particularly rushed to me. I like you, too. I'm not looking to change things right now. Part of taking things one day at a time. If that changes, I'll let you know. You'll let me know, too? And if you want anything in particular, let me know that too.

Thank you for letting me talk to you and making it easy to talk to you.

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Re: Napoleon/Q

outlawthief
2018-03-20 06:40 pm UTC (link)

I will never presume to speak on your behalf or pretend to know what is going on in your mind. That's not my place, Quentin, so I will not invade it.

You're right, unexpected fits better. It was unexpected, with unfortunate timing for it to be so soon after your Middle Earth issue. But I like where we are. I like what we are doing. So long as you do as well, I'd like to stay on this course.

You don't have to thank me for that. I like doing all of this with you, the kissing, the sleeping together yes. But also the talking and helping each other. You've helped me with my own inner struggles as well.

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	Napoleon/Q king_quentin 2018-03-20 06:53 pm UTC (link)
	Thank you. It was a bit, yes, but I wouldn't change it. I'm happy to keep doing what we're doing. Maybe not, but I'm still grateful. I have? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: Napoleon/Q

outlawthief
2018-03-20 09:04 pm UTC (link)

You have.

I know I don't talk about myself and my own thoughts and feelings much, but you have made me realize that sometimes we cannot be with the ones we want to be with originally. And that it is okay.

Because sometimes there are others, others that are just as good and exciting and gorgeous and caring in their own ways and you can see yourself being happy with life like that.

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	Napoleon/Q king_quentin 2018-03-20 09:32 pm UTC (link)
	You can if you want. I share a lot, so I don't mind listening. It's been a long and confusing journey for me to get to that point, but I'm glad that I could help you with that. I do my best. It's the long hair and the man bun probably. Or is it the wooden shoulder and the back tattoo? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Napoleon/Q outlawthief 2018-03-20 09:38 pm UTC (link)
	I will, if I feel the need to. Between you and Rogue, it's been good for me lately, with getting things off my chest, asking the questions I didn't feel comfortable asking others. It was that little vee of your hips, actually. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Napoleon/Q king_quentin 2018-03-20 09:40 pm UTC (link)
	Okay. Just as long as you know. You can ask me anything. Is that what it was? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Napoleon/Q outlawthief 2018-03-20 09:45 pm UTC (link)
	I know and I'll probably take you up on that sometime. I like where it leads. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Napoleon/Q king_quentin 2018-03-20 09:50 pm UTC (link)
	Okay. You would. I've been told my mouth is one of my many wonderful attributes. Just putting that out there. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Napoleon/Q outlawthief 2018-03-20 09:54 pm UTC (link)
	You are a very good kisser. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Napoleon/Q king_quentin 2018-03-20 09:55 pm UTC (link)
	Yes. I can agree to that. But that's also not what I meant. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Napoleon/Q outlawthief 2018-03-20 09:59 pm UTC (link)
	Oh? And what did you mean exactly? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Napoleon/Q king_quentin 2018-03-20 10:03 pm UTC (link)
	I can't tell if you're being serious right now or fucking with me, but if you're serious, I feel so sad for you right now. It also means that I have to rectify this immediately. Well, I don't know if immediately is necessary, but at least as soon as possible. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Napoleon/Q outlawthief 2018-03-20 10:05 pm UTC (link)
	Dinner first and then I'll put your mouth to good use. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Napoleon/Q king_quentin 2018-03-20 10:09 pm UTC (link)
	Dinner first, then. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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