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Tweak says, "Hello Elly"

Ren Waugh-Solo (behindthemask) wrote in thedisplaced,
@ 2017-11-22 09:09:00

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!network post, kylo ren / ben solo, leia organa (legends)

(021) Kylo Ren
[Filter: Leia Organa]

I moved back to the apartment for a while.

[Added later: Filter to Eliot]

My grandmother is here.

Millicent is angry at me, I'm fairly certain.

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el/ky

highkingeliot
2017-11-23 05:45 pm UTC (link)

Yes, please. [...] There isn't really an ideal time when it comes to moving out.

Maybe keeping to ourselves has been part of the problem. Maybe. [...] You're going to need to pin down who you want to be in their eyes. It isn't just who I see or who Petunia, Quentin, Leia, or anyone else who has gotten close sees. The general public is going to be a lot harder to convince of whether you are being genuine or not.

And, well, you need to accept they might never see you as anything else than what the film shows.

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behindthemask
2017-11-23 06:37 pm UTC (link)

No. There isn't. I don't like it. I do think it was a good decision. ~~I think.~~ When I realized grandmother was here alone [...] it maybe seemed like it was good for other reasons too.

Maybe. But I think you underestimate my social skills. You're good with people and parties and people like you. I'm not any of those things. I'm afraid if I started interacting more I'd just inadvertently reinforce people's views without intending to. I ended up doing that the other day, didn't I?

[...]

~~I feel like I did when I was a boy~~ I end up feeling like no matter what I do I'm going to fail at it. ~~I just don't want to fail you.~~ I don't want to trade one mask for another, but I think it's fairly clear most of them won't like me. You're an exception. I'm not Dameron.

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highkingeliot
2017-11-24 12:37 am UTC (link)

I don't like it either. [...] It'll ease up the tension. ~~I guess.~~ So, that is worth it. I didn't like how it was affecting everyone. [...] Yeah, that's a positive.

You always say that. I'm not saying you should go out and try to be everyone's friend. But maybe we ought to go to some of the public events more. Mingle. [...] Maybe interact when it isn't just viewed as a defense? Comment on [...] mundane, every day things? That aren't tied to you or your universe? Perhaps? I'm just spinning ideas here.

Then don't put on a mask. Just be the man you are around me. [...] They might not but you aren't completely without allies. And I'm not talking just myself. [...] You don't need to be like Poe.

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	el/ky behindthemask 2017-11-24 01:05 am UTC (link)
	I didn't either. I wish it weren't that way. You think I should? ~~I never know what to sa~~ [...] I could try. If you think it would help. ~~Don't I?~~ So far it's not really worked so amazingly. Except for people who are actually around maybe. Except for Margo. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	el/ky highkingeliot 2017-11-24 01:12 am UTC (link)
	It has to get better, right? It might help. Or maybe try to strike up conversations off network too? [...] Have you talked to Anakin about this specifically? I think we just need to accept Margo might not be in the cards. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	el/ky behindthemask 2017-11-24 01:16 am UTC (link)
	I want a life with you here. It has to get better. No. [...] I can talk to you. I don't know how to do it with other people. Then what? She's your best friend. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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highkingeliot
2017-11-24 01:25 am UTC (link)

We're going to have a life together. I'm not letting you go.

He might have insight? [...] Do you want to try to do it together? We could mingle out in town? Maybe we could go shopping on Friday. There will be plenty of people out.

We'll keep you apart. [...] I don't know if she's going to change her mind. I think it is better to just anticipate her not doing so and be pleasant surprised if she comes around. [...] I want her to come around.

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	el/ky behindthemask 2017-11-24 01:34 am UTC (link)
	I want you. It's the one thing I'm very certain of right now. I could ask about it. [...] Maybe for a little while. I don't know if I want to do it for the entire day, but we could for a while. ~~I tried to talk to he~~ That's not exactly what I meant. Never mind. You're probably right. I wish I believed she would. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	el/ky highkingeliot 2017-11-24 01:37 am UTC (link)
	You got me. He's in a similar position. I don't know if he'd be able to help but since you two talk... [...] I don't want to do it for the entire day either. We can hit up somewhere for lunch, too. Chat up the wait staff. Compliment and the like. What did you mean, Ky? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	el/ky behindthemask 2017-11-24 01:55 am UTC (link)
	I know. I'll ask him. He's in a house too, but obviously it's not bothering him as much if people there don't like him. ~~Maybe it shouldn't be bothering me.~~ All right. As long as you understand I'm never going to be outgoing exactly. We can hardly tell her she has to move out. But this isn't really home for me either. I'm thinking too far ahead, aren't I? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	el/ky highkingeliot 2017-11-24 02:02 am UTC (link)
	That doesn't mean it hasn't bothered him, either. And I'm not expecting you to be. No, we can't tell her that, and I wouldn't want her to. And I want you to come home. Perhaps, with time, we can be like a normal house and just ignore one another. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	el/ky behindthemask 2017-11-24 02:12 am UTC (link)
	All right. I can smile at least I think. Right. Yeah. Okay. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	el/ky highkingeliot 2017-11-24 02:24 am UTC (link)
	You've got a beautiful smile. I don't know, Ky. It was easier last time. She got to see what you meant to me and it wasn't just thrown at her for her to be judgmental about. [...] She doesn't understand now how much having you around... ...mattered. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	el/ky behindthemask 2017-11-24 02:44 am UTC (link)
	You're biased. For me too. When I was here before on the Island, it was [...] well it was Hux and I, but we just stayed to ourselves. Nobody really wanted to do anything with us. My grandparents briefly. This time I didn't expect [...] You. I didn't expect you, and everything. Maybe together we can convince her. But if not, we'll figure that out too. Together. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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