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Tweak says, "Calgon, take me away!"

Charlie Weasley (borntoresist) wrote in thedisplaced,
@ 2017-11-20 19:30:00

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charlie weasley, charlie weasley (ex), nymphadora tonks

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Alright. Let's get this over with.

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Hi.

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tonks/this charlie

borntoresist
2017-11-21 11:37 pm UTC (link)

I don't want you to leave me alone. Not completely.

I just [...] when I tell you to give me space, please just do it? I shut down more if you don't and I can say I'll try not to but that doesn't mean I'll succeed

I'm so tired, T. I'm so tired of having to go over this again and again and again. And it isn't your fault. But it's true. I can tell you everything and then you could disappear again tomorrow and then show up in five months time and we repeat this.

But that doesn't mean I shouldn't tell you. I just [...] I hate it so much.

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	tonks/this charlie wonkytonks 2017-11-21 11:50 pm UTC (link)
	But. I don't know where the line is. When you tell me people disappear, I get scared. I don't want to lose you. I don't want you to lose me. And I ... really don't want to admit this, but Remus being with another girl, knowing I could have had a chance? Really makes me need validation from someone. I'm lonely. You're kind of all I got. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tonks/this charlie borntoresist 2017-11-21 11:54 pm UTC (link)
	Will me telling you to leave something be enough to establish a line? I don't mean for you to be scared. It's hard not to be so I get it but it isn't what I've wanted. [...] Tonks, I've been losing everyone. ~~Please don't make me talk about him.~~ I'm sorry. I didn't think about it that way. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tonks/this charlie wonkytonks 2017-11-21 11:57 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah. I'll drop it. I know, Charlie. I thought about it, how it must be for someone to show up and know that they could disappear at any time. But that's just like real life. People die all the time. This way they could at least come back. I love him, Charlie. I think I do. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

tonks/this charlie

borntoresist
2017-11-22 12:02 am UTC (link)

Okay. [...] We can talk now, I just meant [...] for the future.

That isn't the complete issue though. It's that they come back or they don't. Or they do and then they go and then they don't. When people die in real life, there isn't no return. You can grieve. Here? You never know if it is permanent.

Yeah. I know you do. [...] You could find that you love someone else, too. One day.

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	tonks/this charlie wonkytonks 2017-11-22 12:05 am UTC (link)
	I reckon that is a precarious position to be in. Waiting is the worst. It gives me a knot in my stomach. But I don't want anyone else. Haven't you ever been in love? You don't think "Oh well, I'll move on..." You start to wonder if their current situation is permanent. Like waiting for someone to come back here. It's all the same. The knot. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tonks/this charlie borntoresist 2017-11-22 12:08 am UTC (link)
	And I've had it happen more than once that I decided to stop waiting, move forward, only for what I was waiting for to show up. It's hell. I have been in love. And I've lost them before, too. But time heals you, or it is meant to, and you find love again even when you aren't looking. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tonks/this charlie wonkytonks 2017-11-22 12:16 am UTC (link)
	Do you think that's what this place is? Hell? I'm not Christian, but. This could be it. It hurts. It's not fair. I'm supposed to have him. What's wrong with me? I'm well aware of how much of a 13 year old I sound like. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tonks/this charlie borntoresist 2017-11-22 12:24 am UTC (link)
	No, I don't. Even if it feels like it sometimes. Good things happen here. I promise. [...] Nothing's wrong with you. I mean, you do sound a little bit like a teenager, but I'll remind you I've resorted to sleeping on the ground to avoid talking. We all have our low points. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tonks/this charlie wonkytonks 2017-11-22 12:28 am UTC (link)
	I'm alive, but at what cost? ~~If I try to fuck the other you will you be ups~~ I'm going to go back to bottling it up and drinking to forget. Are you coming home? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tonks/this charlie borntoresist 2017-11-22 12:35 am UTC (link)
	Hey. No. I've been coming in late the past few nights. Stayed out a few. Depends on the night. ~~I want to move.~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tonks/this charlie wonkytonks 2017-11-22 12:40 am UTC (link)
	Albus told me about Teddy the other day. I sobbed for an hour. I'm going to sleep in your room tonight. If you come in, just scoot me over. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tonks/this charlie borntoresist 2017-11-22 01:25 am UTC (link)
	Yeah, and Teddy could show up any day. So don't say shit like that, okay? That's fine. [...] You going to be pissed if I don't come home? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tonks/this charlie wonkytonks 2017-11-22 01:32 am UTC (link)
	I kind of hate Remus. He doesn't love me, he got to meet Teddy. You probably love me saying that. No, do what you hafta do. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tonks/this charlie borntoresist 2017-11-22 01:41 am UTC (link)
	Not really. Just because I don't like him, doesn't mean I wanted you unhappy. [...] Promise? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tonks/this charlie wonkytonks 2017-11-22 03:55 am UTC (link)
	I know. I promise. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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