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doctorlizardo (doctorlizardo) wrote in tensor,
@ 2011-05-06 19:49:00

Entry tags:

noah_varr, vic_borkowski

Noah
Vic had seriously considered begging off his weekly Friday afternoon training session with Noah. It was an at least mildly frustrating experience at the best of times, and today he was sleep deprived and incredibly frustrated to start after most of a week of Sophie waking him up at all hours...and watching mostly-naked Noah dealing with her ninety percent of the time when she did. He was realizing now that he really should have.

Sophie was 'sleeping' quietly against the wall in her little portable bassinet thing, and Noah had Vic bent over and was hovering over him, almost back to chest, as he shifted him where he wanted him. If this was just the beginning Vic was fairly sure he was going to implode well before their usual hour was up, and he made a small, pained sound that had absolutely nothing to do with the stretch Noah was urging him into..

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	doctorlizardo 2011-05-10 01:34 am UTC (link)
	"I'm fucking mortified," Vic agreed without hesitation. "And frustrated. And exhausted." And holy shit, he actually felt kind of like he might cry, which was so not a fucking option, and he ground the heels of his hands harder into his eyelids. "And I need to get the hell out of here," he added unsteadily. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	modernmarvel 2011-05-10 01:36 am UTC (link)
	"Why? There is nothing to be embarrassed about, Victor." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	doctorlizardo 2011-05-10 01:43 am UTC (link)
	"Seriously Noah, I just...really can't do this right now. I will be happy to talk to you about why the hell it's embarrassing as fuck that I can't seem to control how damn much I want you sometime when I'm not about to fall apart, but right now? I...just need to not be here. Do you need me to take Soph or are you okay with her?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	modernmarvel 2011-05-10 01:46 am UTC (link)
	"She is fine where she is." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	doctorlizardo 2011-05-10 01:59 am UTC (link)
	"Okay. Thanks." He rubbed at his eyes for a second longer then dropped his hands and gave Noah a decidedly weak and wobbly smile. He felt like shit, and pretty much looked it too. "I really am sorry," he mumbled before turning and heading for the door. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	modernmarvel 2011-05-10 02:11 am UTC (link)
	"There is no need to apologize," he assured him. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	doctorlizardo 2011-05-10 02:18 am UTC (link)
	"Yeah, there really is," Vic answered quietly. "Because it is seriously pathetic that I still can hardly think past how damn much I want to touch you so, um...if you're not comfortable in my room anymore? I totally understand. I can handle Soph alone tonight." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	modernmarvel 2011-05-10 02:29 am UTC (link)
	"That will not be necessary, unless you shall be uncomfortable." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	doctorlizardo 2011-05-10 02:42 am UTC (link)
	"No, it's, um...it's fine." He waved a hand vaguely before stuffing them both in his pockets and heading out the door, shoulders hunched, head down, and pretty much an perfect illustration for misery. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	modernmarvel 2011-05-10 02:44 am UTC (link)
	"If you cannot think beyond the action, why do you not just perform it?" Noah asked, from in front of him. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	doctorlizardo 2011-05-10 03:07 am UTC (link)
	Vic wasn't expecting Noah to magically appear in front of him, damned superspeed, so he didn't stop in time and, as he'd been accelerating out the door he didn't just bounce off Noah's chest. He bounced off Noah's chest pretty damned hard and went staggering back, his expression nothing but absolute shock as he tried to catch his balance. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	modernmarvel 2011-05-10 03:12 am UTC (link)
	Speed had Victor caught before he could fall. Strength corrected his balance. By doing no more than holding him and not moving himself, Noah countered Victor's momentum. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

doctorlizardo
2011-05-10 03:19 am UTC (link)

And instead of landing on his ass Vic faceplanted directly into Noah's chest. He froze there for a moment, his only obvious reaction a startled whimper, then put both hands on Noah's shoulders and pushed himself away. And stood there. Trembling so slightly it was almost unnoticeable and staring at Noah.

"Because if you don't want to be touched that's assault," Noah, he finally answered. Very slow. Very careful. Very confused. He took a deep breath, looked up at Noah's face - he'd been talking to the guy's pecs, because apparently he sucked - and asked, "Do you want me to, um...to touch you, Noah?" Just as slow and careful as before.

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	modernmarvel 2011-05-10 03:55 am UTC (link)
	"You could have just asked," he pointed out, amending the statement a moment later. "Earlier." Stepping closer, he spread both arms at his sides in clear invitation. "If you wish to, Victor, do so. I do not wish to be anyone's torment." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	doctorlizardo 2011-05-10 04:22 am UTC (link)
	Vic just stared at him. Again. Processing the offer and what it meant. And then he took an unsteady step back, arms coming up to wrap around himself. "And I don't want to be anyone's charity case, Noah," he answered, voice unsteady and just about breaking. "I don't want to be something you tolerate because you feel sorry for how fucking pathetic I am." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	modernmarvel 2011-05-10 04:36 am UTC (link)
	"Do I appear to you someone who would tolerate anyone out of pity or sympathy?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	doctorlizardo 2011-05-10 04:39 am UTC (link)
	"so what, then?" Vic asked, still and staring at him. "What do you want?" It didn't matter if the motivation wasn't pity, if it wasn't want then it was still just charity. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	modernmarvel 2011-05-10 04:42 am UTC (link)
	"I want to help you." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

doctorlizardo
2011-05-10 05:05 am UTC (link)

"Yeah, that? That's not the right kind of want, Noah," Vic answered. He sighed and shoved the heels of his hands against his eyes again. "I...appreciate the thought," he mumbled. "But...you don't let someone touch you, not like that, just because you...you want to help them," he told Noah, voice almost gentle. "You should only do that if...if you want to be touched."

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	modernmarvel 2011-05-10 05:25 am UTC (link)
	In the room, Sophie began to cry. Noah disappeared in a blink to go settle her. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	doctorlizardo 2011-05-10 05:27 am UTC (link)
	Vic stared at the empty place where Noah had been for a moment, sighed quietly, and started to walk away again. He kind of really wished he could get drunk. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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