Rachel chuckled, then sighed. "Looking for it is a waste of time. Especially in this place. Because right when you think you've found someone, something comes along and fucks with everything." She shook her head. "For most people, anyway. There are a select few that are allowed to be happy." She made a face. "I can't really say that, though. Because everybody in my generation has somebody. They're all happy and in love and wonderful and....I'm the crazy cat lady but without the cats."