I'm sorry. I shouldn't be blaming you for things that haven't happened for you yet. It's childish and petty and I sincerely apologize. I'm actually really glad that you don't know about the things that Howard did to me. It's a lot easier that way. But it is hard for me to get past it because of the physical and emotional scars that remain.
I love you, mom. And I'm really glad that I get to have you back in my life. And that you get to be here to see your grandson. I'm just asking that you give me some time. I know it's been several months, but a lot has changed in those months and I just need to be able to handle everything and figure out how the hell I'm going to be a good father.