"I know." But knowing hadn't really made it any easier to be without him. She nibbled pensively on a cracker, and snuggled closer. "Sometimes it felt as if you were right here with me, but then I'd turn, and you weren't there."
She'd thought that she was making herself literally sick with worry--and wondered if she might be really going crazy--until she's counted the days, and another realization had fallen into place. She hadn't told anyone yet. She wanted to be sure, and she wanted Thomas to be the first to know.