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Cisco Ramon is an anomaly ([info]onlygoodvibes) wrote in [info]somerealityweb,
@ 2020-02-14 07:41:00

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Entry tags:inactive: stiles stilinski

[Tony]
Got some stuff to work through, not going to be in today.

[Stiles]
Thanks for keeping me company last night.

[Kara]
Sorry I snapped at you, got some stuff to work through.

[Remus]
.. Do you have a second?


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Cisco | Remus
[info]moonier
2020-02-14 04:07 pm UTC (link)
Certainly.

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Re: Cisco | Remus
[info]onlygoodvibes
2020-02-14 04:20 pm UTC (link)
I'm sorry, this is random and weird and you don't know me at all. I don't know what to say and I reached out to you, I guess I just miss you. Or him. Or whatever.

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Cisco | Remus
[info]moonier
2020-02-14 04:43 pm UTC (link)
It's fascinating. I've always thought about how we are different things to different people, and that there are as many versions of ourselves in the world as there are people we know. I have never been faced with this in anything but the theoretical sense. It is quite existential.

If you knew me when I was younger, before certain events in my life occurred, then you knew a slightly different person. At my core, however, I like to believe I have not changed too very much.

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Re: Cisco | Remus
[info]onlygoodvibes
2020-02-14 04:56 pm UTC (link)
Yeah. Sorry I didn't want to cause anyone else an existential experience this week.


If I said tea and chocolate maybe you'd say..?

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Cisco | Remus
[info]moonier
2020-02-14 06:08 pm UTC (link)
Unless you have magic or mind control, lad, you have no control over or say in how anyone else reacts. You can only control yourself. So, I appreciate your concern while taking full responsibility for my thoughts.

They are two of my favourite things. If you're issuing an invitation, I accept.

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Re: Cisco | Remus
[info]onlygoodvibes
2020-02-14 07:11 pm UTC (link)
I didn't even do a spectacular job of controlling myself. But that's neither here nor there apparently, so thanks.

You don't have a particular fondness for valentines day or anything related to it do you? If no, then yes it is an invite If yes, an invite for a day that is not associated with this one.

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Cisco | Remus
[info]moonier
2020-02-14 09:51 pm UTC (link)
I do no, though I am planning to make dinner for my son as this is my first holiday with him.

I have a few hours.

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Re: Cisco | Remus
[info]onlygoodvibes
2020-02-14 11:42 pm UTC (link)
That's fine, I don't mind other people enjoying it, I just don't myself right now. Playing the avoiding game.

Sounds good, do you mind coming to my apartment? or neutral place?

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Cisco | Remus
[info]moonier
2020-02-16 03:18 am UTC (link)
I can, yes. Which one is yours?

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Re: Cisco | Remus
[info]onlygoodvibes
2020-02-16 03:24 am UTC (link)
Sorry..maybe not mine. There'sa coffee place I know that has tea though?

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Stiles | Cisco
[info]sarcasticfriend
2020-02-14 11:54 pm UTC (link)
You're welcome.

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Re: Stiles | Cisco
[info]onlygoodvibes
2020-02-15 03:15 am UTC (link)
Dealing with some.not so good stuff right now. It was a nice change.

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Stiles | Cisco
[info]sarcasticfriend
2020-02-15 03:19 am UTC (link)
Still don't wanna talk about it?

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Re: Stiles | Cisco
[info]onlygoodvibes
2020-02-15 03:20 am UTC (link)
I nearly ruined George and I. I'm not even sure where we are right now.

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Stiles | Cisco
[info]sarcasticfriend
2020-02-15 03:22 am UTC (link)
Oh. Give it some time. It'll work out unless you did something unforgivable.

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Stiles | Cisco
[info]onlygoodvibes
2020-02-15 03:23 am UTC (link)
I don't know if I did or not, I said something awful. We were both upset about stuff..but I never should have said it.

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Stiles | Cisco
[info]sarcasticfriend
2020-02-15 04:07 am UTC (link)
What was it about?

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Re: Stiles | Cisco
[info]onlygoodvibes
2020-02-15 04:09 am UTC (link)
His daughter who went home. I said some stupid things, we had plans. Neither of us had even dealt with her presence, she was here then gone in a flash.

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Stiles | Cisco
[info]sarcasticfriend
2020-02-15 04:14 am UTC (link)
Ouch. Still, she was his family. You don't say shit about someone's family (if that's what happened).

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Re: Stiles | Cisco
[info]onlygoodvibes
2020-02-15 04:16 am UTC (link)
I said didn’t want to stay home and be sad about his daughter with someone else. I know it was out of line. I’d take it back if I could but I can’t. I was being a jealous idiot and not thinking clearly.

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Stiles | Cisco
[info]sarcasticfriend
2020-02-15 04:40 am UTC (link)
You'll just have to give him space and time.

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Re: Stiles | Cisco
[info]onlygoodvibes
2020-02-15 04:43 am UTC (link)
I’m pretty sure I ruined it. I wouldn’t want to date me anymore.

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Stiles | Cisco
[info]sarcasticfriend
2020-02-15 04:51 am UTC (link)
You'll just have to wait and see what happens.

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Re: Stiles | Cisco
[info]onlygoodvibes
2020-02-15 04:54 am UTC (link)
Yeah...so what do you do when you don’t like yourself much in the meantime?

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Re: Stiles | Cisco
[info]sarcasticfriend
2020-02-15 06:29 am UTC (link)
Find something to do that'll keep your mind off of it.

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Re: Stiles | Cisco
[info]onlygoodvibes
2020-02-15 02:11 pm UTC (link)
Not sure I can, hitting that wall where functional human things are hard.. But I'll try.

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Re: Stiles | Cisco
[info]sarcasticfriend
2020-02-15 02:51 pm UTC (link)
You hit that wall a ton. Break the cycle.

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Kara | Cisco
[info]superhopeful
2020-02-15 03:53 pm UTC (link)
You can't take your problems out on other people when they're trying to help you, Cisco.

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Re: Kara | Cisco
[info]onlygoodvibes
2020-02-15 04:12 pm UTC (link)
I know that. I'm working on it. I'm just.. It doesn't matter what I am. I'm messing up all over the place and I'm trying to fix it.

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Kara | Cisco
[info]superhopeful
2020-02-15 04:45 pm UTC (link)
Yes, you do and you are. You keep making things about you when people are just looking for your support, Cisco. I get that you might not know how to handle some things, but when your friends are hurting over loss--that's when you've got to put that aside and step up.

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Re: Kara | Cisco
[info]onlygoodvibes
2020-02-15 04:53 pm UTC (link)
I'm trying to do that now. I know I was out of line okay? But now I don't know how to fix it. Any of it. I'm staying home, I'm being there, but I caused it and I don't know what else to do. I don't care about myself I'm just trying to fix it and can't. I'm not trying to make anything about me. Not anymore. He knows that. All I want y to do is be there but I've messed up so bad I don't know how.

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Re: Kara | Cisco
[info]superhopeful
2020-02-15 04:55 pm UTC (link)
You may not be trying, but you are and you have been. Instead of belittling yourself about it, own up to what you did and be better.

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Re: Kara | Cisco
[info]onlygoodvibes
2020-02-15 05:04 pm UTC (link)
How? How am I supposed to own up to saying something awful? I know I did. I can't take it back, I've apologized I didn't mean it. I'm being there. How am I supposed to be better? I don't understand how I'm making it about me. I understand I should have stayed, but I can't go back in time and change it. All I can do is be there now and I'm trying my hardest to without being pushy.

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Re: Kara | Cisco
[info]superhopeful
2020-02-15 05:06 pm UTC (link)
Look at what you've said and done. You cared more about George having a daughter in a future he hasn't experienced than you did about how he felt about losing her. So yeah, apologizing isn't enough, Cisco. Him having a daughter he didn't know had nothing to do with you or your future together here.

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Re: Kara | Cisco
[info]onlygoodvibes
2020-02-15 05:11 pm UTC (link)
What do you do when apologizing doesn't fix it? He means the world to me. I don't want to hurt him anymore.

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Re: Kara | Cisco
[info]superhopeful
2020-02-15 05:12 pm UTC (link)
ASK HIM. Ask him how he feels about the whole thing. Don't get upset when he needs time to deal. I can't speak for him, but I think you making it about you didn't help his heart at all, Cisco. You made it worse, so suck it up and tell him you're sorry for what you did and not how awful you keep saying you are.

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Re: Kara | Cisco
[info]onlygoodvibes
2020-02-15 05:18 pm UTC (link)
Okay. I'm aware I made it worse, Kara. I'm trying to make it right. Thank you for your advice. I will ask him.

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Re: Kara | Cisco
[info]superhopeful
2020-02-15 05:20 pm UTC (link)
Beating yourself up about it isn't going to help. Remember that.

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Re: Kara | Cisco
[info]onlygoodvibes
2020-02-15 05:23 pm UTC (link)
Okay.

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