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Tweak says, "Coming to take me away he he!"

Allison Hargreeves || The Rumor (imadeawish) wrote in somerealityweb,
@ 2019-11-17 13:37:00

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Maybe someone who has had an actual functional relationship should give him advice. Who hasn't already said something, I mean. Klaus? I

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	Ward undeadhorror 2019-11-17 10:36 pm UTC (link)
	That is very kind of you to say, Vanya. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ward aloneinacrowd 2019-11-17 11:23 pm UTC (link)
	And it's the truth. I might be a little biased because I'm your sister and I love you, but I do genuinely think that there isn't a person here who wouldn't count themselves lucky to be your friend because you are that wonderful. And if friendship turns more, even better. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ward undeadhorror 2019-11-17 11:55 pm UTC (link)
	But like... nevermind. I don't think I can really talk to you about this. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Vanya \| Ben aloneinacrowd 2019-11-17 11:59 pm UTC (link)
	Hey... You can talk to me about anything, I promise. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Vanya \| Ben undeadhorror 2019-11-18 12:00 am UTC (link)
	You're my sister and its weird. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Vanya \| Ben aloneinacrowd 2019-11-18 12:04 am UTC (link)
	Maybe? But if you're going to be weird, who better to be weird with than someone who is just as weird and loves you anyway? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Vanya | Ben

undeadhorror
2019-11-18 12:06 am UTC (link)

It's just like... I want to kiss pretty ~~people~~ girls like Luther... but like...

I cant. Cause like.... I can always feel it right there and like... what if they can feel it too and the horror is this massive huge probably deadly turn off and then like

it gets weirder cause like... what if we're naked and doing it and then like I can feel it just in there and IT IS SO WEIRD TO THINK ABOUT

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Vanya | Ben

aloneinacrowd
2019-11-18 12:30 am UTC (link)

Okay, I think this will be easier if I ask a couple of potentially uncomfortable questions. And please feel free to tell me if you're not comfortable answering them.

Does it react to things? Like, your emotional state. If you're agitated, does it get agitated too?

Is there any physical sign of the portal? I don't remember ever seeing you less dressed, even when we were really little.

Is there ever a time when you're not acutely aware of it? Like, can you kind of forget it's there?

In general... sex is weird. It's really weird without the additional weirdness of being who we are. The only thing I can say that won't be a huge case of TMI for you is that when you're in the moment... you kind of lose yourself to that moment. All those things about yourself that you don't like are completely forgotten. They're ultimately unimportant.

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Vanya | Ben

undeadhorror
2019-11-18 12:37 am UTC (link)

Sort of. Like ... It is very active when I'm like.. upset or angry and I can just feel it. I don't even know if it knows about my emotions, or that it knows what emotions are. Just that i can feel it more when I'm all up about something. And... I couldn't control it. When I was scared in the maze, I couldn't control it. That's why it killed Diego.

there isn't like a whole or anything there. It's solid and stuff. But like, idk. I just like if our bodies are all close together maybe they can feel it press against the portal doors like I can sometimes.

Not that I can remember. I'm always worried about it, I'm always aware.

I don't know.

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Vanya | Ben

aloneinacrowd
2019-11-18 01:15 am UTC (link)

It kind of makes sense, about your not having control of it when you were in the maze. You were scared and it was protecting you (and maybe itself) against anything that could be a threat. I'm sorry that Diego got caught up in it.

If you press your hand against it, can you feel it there? Or is it more of an internal feeling?

Other than the maze... has it ever slipped out without you wanting to open the portal?

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	Vanya \| Ben undeadhorror 2019-11-20 03:53 am UTC (link)
	Uh... no it's more internal I think. But like I know its there. Idk. It's just uncomfortable knowing its there. Only a few times. In... uh. .. ~~expireme~~ some special trainings with dad. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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