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Tweak says, "Size doesn't matter!"

lydia martin (futureimperfect) wrote in somerealityweb,
@ 2019-08-30 13:03:00

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active: derek hale, inactive: cora hale, inactive: lydia martin, inactive: scott mccall, inactive: stiles stilinski

[ Team Beacon Hills ]

We're going to have a picnic on the beach.

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	Lydia \| Scott truealphascott 2019-08-31 02:38 am UTC (link)
	Terrifying thought, that. Let's never speak of it again. He was anxious, for sure. You know Stiles, he tries hard to look on the bright side but he doesn't fool anyone. He missed you, like, a lot. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lydia \| Scott futureimperfect 2019-08-31 02:47 am UTC (link)
	I hate that thought. And I hate that me being here probably gives him another kind of anxiety... like when the darkness came and I was useless and not sleeping. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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truealphascott
2019-08-31 02:53 am UTC (link)

Let's not call this anything other than it is: you love each other. If him being here anchors you and makes you feel secure, you do the same for him. The thought of losing him is going to make you feel just as anxious as if the situation were reversed. It's a partnership, Lyd. When one of you flags, the other one steps in and helps even the load. You maybe felt useless, but you were still here and Stiles would rather that than not see you.

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	Lydia \| Scott futureimperfect 2019-08-31 03:02 am UTC (link)
	I know all of that. And it's more, he's... I can't even put it into words. Like coming home, but a person. That's why it hurt when you basically called it just sex. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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truealphascott
2019-08-31 03:14 am UTC (link)

He's your other half? The part of yourself you didn't know you needed until you found him? I'm not being flippant here, Lyd, I swear. I only wish I had someone who's that person.

I didn't mean to hurt you and I fucked up because we all know what you guys mean to one another. It was a cheap shot when I was feeling vulnerable myself and it wasn't supposed to hurt anyone, I hope you know that. Also, do I get to be a bridesmaid still? I'll wear pink and everything?

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	Lydia \| Scott futureimperfect 2019-08-31 03:27 am UTC (link)
	Not quite. We're both whole people, but it's like it's safe to be myself with him and the world because I know he's there and he sees me for what I am and what I'm not. It's weird that we're so young and we found this. You still have time. Please, we both know there won't be pink. And you'll be at his side making sure he doesn't hyperventilate. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Lydia | Scott

truealphascott
2019-08-31 03:33 am UTC (link)

If I don't understand completely it's only that I haven't experienced it first-hand. I see you - both of you - I see what you mean to one another. You're exactly where you were meant to be.

I'm thinking it'll be more fun in the bridal party. Besides, we all know it'll be me doing the hyperventilating while you guys break your faces emoting at each other. I mean that in the best way possible.

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	Lydia \| Scott futureimperfect 2019-08-31 03:41 am UTC (link)
	I can't even confidently say you'll know it when you feel it. But I'm glad it happened when it did and not sooner. The circumstance could have been better... but maybe that's what we needed. I'm happy enjoying it as it is right now. It's nice to come home to him every night. More feels greedy. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lydia \| Scott truealphascott 2019-08-31 04:00 am UTC (link)
	I always thought maybe I lost my chance at that with Allison, you know? Talk for sadder times. This is your time and place so just live it. You're allowed to be greedy, too. Mostly I'm just happy you're both happy. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lydia \| Scott futureimperfect 2019-08-31 04:14 am UTC (link)
	Yea, well, back then I thought I'd marry Jackson despite [ ... ] everything. Things change in ways you can't expect sometimes. There will be a time for you. I don't want to put pressure on us, either. Thanks. I know if you didn't approve there'd not be much hope. Not that I thought you wouldn't... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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truealphascott
2019-09-01 11:48 pm UTC (link)

Was that your way of saying we were young and naive? Not that I'd disagree. Fingers crossed for that time, huh?

You don't need my approval. Ever. You know that, right? I love Stiles and I know he feels the same (insert barf-face) but we don't always have to agree. When we don't, we respect that. And then Stiles tries to change my mind 😉. Seriously, though, you make him happy and that's what matters to me.

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